(那时候的我,一直都在想,依赖和恋爱到底有什么不一样?如果过去一切的一切都只是我的错觉而已,那我过去的感觉也未免太过逼真,真实了。)

Yes, this is a world which belong to me, where i can express myself freely here. But this is not a normal world. At here, snow is no longer white; shiny day also won't appear here. Here is the hell for a dark angel, a world which belong to the dark angel.

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Thursday 22 January 2009

周定纬 - You Are Not Alone

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away

Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Oh...
Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
Fly...
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
(You are not alone)

For I am here with you
(I am here with you)

Though you're far away
(Though you're far away)

I am here to stay
(And you with me)

For you are not alone
(You're always)
In my heart.....

For I am here with you
Heart.....
Though we're far apart
Heart.....
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
Not alone
You are not alone, you are not alone...
You are not alone, you are not alone...
Not alone, not alone
You just reach for me girl
In the morning in the evening
Not alone, not alone
And you with me, not alone
Oh, together, together...

Tuesday 20 January 2009

Spam

Nothing to do...
Long time didn't log in here...
Well...
Long time huh?
haha...
So i just simply drops a few words here...
Spam... Spam... and spam...

haha...

I miss someone... deep inside my heart... i miss someone... yeah... I miss you ^^
But i think you will never know it ^^

Tuesday 13 January 2009

Amei Star Tour Live in Malaysia 2009

Date: 20th March 2009, Friday
Time: 8.45pm
Venue: National Stadium (Outdoor), Bukit Jalil, KL

Anyone want to go with me!??

你好不好?

忽然间,

很想见见你。。。
很想知道你的近况。。。

你最近过得怎样?
你快不快乐?
有幸福吗?
还像以前那样子吗?
还是那样地封闭自己?
找到了可以令你信任的他了吗?

你好不好?

这一大堆的问题,到底代表着什么呢?
我以为自己已经放下你了。可是,当我无意中游览你的部落格时,当我知道你并不快乐时;怎么那久违了的痛又回来找我了?你的不快乐真的令我觉得很心疼!

原来我还是会想保护你!

可是已经不是以前那种感觉了。现在的我只想默默地在你身边守护着你,直到你的真命天子出现;以朋友的身份来守护你!
可是你还愿意当我的朋友吗?唉。。。

怎样都好,我会祝福你的!
我这一辈子都会珍藏在心里的朋友。。。

你一定要幸福!!!

Tuesday 6 January 2009

双面人?

曾几何时,我也曾经是一个天真无邪的小伙子。

可是。。。不懂几时开始,可能当我开始懂事开始,身上的责任越来越大时;这个天真无邪的小伙子就消失了,消失地无影无踪了;取而代之的是一个“对人欢笑,背人流泪”的青年了。

渐渐地,好像开始对人失去了信心,开始学会了隐藏自己。开始觉得并坚信着,只要自己的情绪一曝露,就等于把自己的弱点赤裸裸地展现出来,而也就会有人来伤害自己了。
很可悲吧?

就是这样,我已经很久很久没有真正地笑过,哭过了。所有的情绪都往肚子里吞;渐渐地,就好像变成了一个行尸走肉,一具没有情绪的机械人。

那我还是我吗???

Monday 5 January 2009

Me... Terry of 2009

Ya... once again... i failed...

Now i am kind of confused already... what should i do? What i actually want? Where am i heading to? What a future is awaitng for me? All these questions are just wondering around me... inside my head... i felt that my head is going to explode... pain... pain... and just pain... Sigh...

After going through all these failure... only i realize that... part of me is still kept within you... Yes... you... the 1st, the only and most probably the last? I wonder... Sigh... So what should i do now?

Since the day i met you... i started to change... a little by little... and now more and more alike you... i think i wil just build a defensive tower around myself... and lock up my heart... and then just throw the key into the deep blue sea... and let nobody able to open up into my heart... because i cannot afford anything already... at least right now... i think...

From the beginning... i liked you... then i loved you... then i scared of losing now... then something happened... or some conflict build between us... and i forced to break with you... forced to say the cruel words with my own mouth while my heart was keep bleeding... and then i missed you... day by day... until now... you become part of me already... we far away from each other... but you live in my heart... forever... haha... just like a tattoo... sigh...

So i think... maybe i am just not suitable to be in love... maybe love is too luxuries for me... so the 2009 version of me... will just do what you did to me... cage myself and never let anyone enter...

Happy Lonely 2009 ^^

Friday 2 January 2009

Apologize is not Needed

Haha... back here again...
suddenly just want to shout out load these few sentences below...

其實, 沒有我, 你分不出那些差別...

結局還能多明顯!??

別說你會難過!!!

別說你想改變!!!

被愛的人不用道歉...... !!!

Me, Myself and I

Ya... Yeah... Yes...
Me, myself and i...
Beyonce Knowles' old song... 1 of my favorite song from my favorite artist... But i won't copy the lyrics here... LAZY... hehe ^^

But i will just quote the song title as my blog title, because this is what my feeling now. After so many attempts of trying, i thought finally i can have a stable relationship, a stable and long term relationship. But again, as usual, everything just fade aways, and just left "me, myself and i"...

And yes, i think i am to naive to keep believe in love, after my keep falling and hurting... And i still so naive to think that i can have true love? Sigh... ya... that's right... i am just a stupid idiot that keep hurting myself.

Now i am so confused already... who can trust... who cannot... what is love... how a lover should be... i think maybe i just a terrible lover... and maybe i just not meant to be in love... Nobody's fault... maybe is just my own problem that make nobody like me... i think this is the best answer for everything...

So anyone can answer me? Should i just locked my heart for myself? Since it is also broken into million pieces since you know when... I wonder...

Me, myself and I...
I will be my own best friend ~