(那时候的我,一直都在想,依赖和恋爱到底有什么不一样?如果过去一切的一切都只是我的错觉而已,那我过去的感觉也未免太过逼真,真实了。)

Yes, this is a world which belong to me, where i can express myself freely here. But this is not a normal world. At here, snow is no longer white; shiny day also won't appear here. Here is the hell for a dark angel, a world which belong to the dark angel.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Thursday, 19 November 2009

ME and MY COLLEAGUES

When I take a long time to finish,
I am SLOW.
When they takes a long time,
Their task is more COMPLICATED

When I don't do it,
I am SLACKING.
When they does not do it,
They have MANY TASKS ON HAND

When I do something without being told,
I am trying to be SMART.
When they do the same,
They take the INITIATIVE

When I please my boss,
I am APPLE POLISHING.
When they pleases their boss,
They are COOPERATING

When I make a mistake,
I have to take my own RESPONSIBILITY.
When they make a mistake,
I have to COVER them UP

When I am out of the office,
I am WONDERING AROUND.
When they are out of the office,
They try to RELEASE STRESS

When I am on a day off sick,
I am ALWAYS sick.
When they are a day off sick,
They must be VERY ILL

When I apply for leave,
I must be going for an INTERVIEW.
When they apply for leave,
It's because they are OVERWORKED

When I help them,
They take it as GRANTED
When I do not,
I BETRAY them

累。。。

累了。。。
我真的累了。

唉。。。
如果你还在,那就好。
不管发生什么事,放工后,一听到你的声音;周末,一见到你的笑容;那我就有力量继续走下去了。

可是,现在,不管几累,我都得自己一个人硬撑。

真的累了。。。

Colleague? OR Friend?

Actually since day 1 i became a Quality person, i should know that in my working life, it is very difficult to have friends already.

Previously, Siao Hui from ISO Technology Sdn Bhd is an exception. But i think that is all. One friend from my work is already a blessing from god. I should not hope for more.

Very funny that i still think i have a group of nice friends in current company. Although our position are mean to be opposite side, we still can remain friendship. But fact prove that i was wrong; totally wrong.

Ya, it is very true that human being is selfish, only think of themselves. I quote this from one of the so call "friend" from my work place, which he wrote that to critic on me. But i do agree on this statement. Ya, human is very selfish. For those who wrote that for me, maybe you can think on your own statement for a while. Didn't yourself selfish?

Scenario:-
I was hired as a Quality person in the company. I get paid to be a Quality person in the company. Reviewing and point out whatever which is not acceptable is my job function. My life is depends on that, and this is what i do in my work. So, if i think something which may not accept by the end user, what should i do? Settle under table and then drag the due date? Go and tell my superior that i am very slow, still in checking while i let those so called "friend" keep modify whatsoever non-acceptable until it is done? So that superior will see "friend" had done a good job, and i am terrible because i use long period to check simple thing? So this is what my so called "friend" want? I help with everything i could, "friend" impress superior and push me to hell? If i do so, then only i qualified be their "friend"?

Did anyone think in my shoes?
Boss pay money to hire me, to help checking and ensure everything release to end user is acceptable. And i depend on my salary to live my life. House loan, car loan, insurance, study loan, food, and so on. If i settle everything under table, and one day, i get fired. Is it my so called "friend" will resposible for my life? Why cannot just separate working life from private life? Work is work, and put everything in official. Am i wrong?

Anyway, whatever it is, is too late to say anything already. I did wrong? Friend did wrong? It doesn't matter already. The friendship no longer exist. Sorry to say that, due to all my commitment, i still will have to do my part of job. And i won't hope for friendship anymore in office. Friendship is a too greedy wish for me to have in working life. I won't go and assualt anyone, and i also won't go and apple polish anyone. Let's just work professionally and do everything officially.

As per the title, colleague or friend? I think "colleague" is more suitable for everyone's sake......


(PS: Kopi, Eddy, Pui Kwan, Barley, Bryan... i miss you guys... really miss the time we all still together... we can discuss everything openly... critic each other openly... and like it or not, accept the opinion or not... no hard feeling between us... even we have negative emotion, still can deal with it and maintain our friendship until now... but too bad... working life make everyone apart... all the best luck to all of us......)

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

这就是我。。。

白羊座的特性

白羊座是十二星座中的第一個星座,代表著初生的原始靈魂和感覺。他們充滿了強烈的好奇心、堅強的意志力,不服輸和冒險犯難、創新求變的精神往往將第一視為理所當然,不喜歡落在別人的後面。當他們面對競爭壓力時,戰鬥力十足而且洋溢著熱情活力,是行動派的人物。

自我意識和主觀意識很強,充滿自信而且固執;不會等待機會從天而降,而會積極的爭取,無畏艱難和困苦。雖然有時會顯得衝動,但基本上還是會保持理智和果決,是個適合面對競爭壓力、熱情且永遠天真未泯的人。

白羊座的人令人覺得他開朗而熱情。即使他內心是有那麼點害羞,表面上仍可以很自在大方。當一頭白羊愁眉苦臉時,只會出現在他家裡鏡子中。他再傷心,就是不會在別人面前擺出苦旦臉。好強?可以這麼說。誰不好強呢?其實白羊座的人仍會向朋友吐苦水,但真正的眼淚,您是看不到的。

一群朋友,開開心心的,在陽光下嬉耍,是白羊座最懷念的美好時光。悲鬱的人生絕不是白羊座的人所嚮往的,不幸陷入時,他也會極力設法讓自己不要太相信會就這麼過一生,他全心希望有一個新生活。


对的,所以极少朋友看过我悲伤的一面。我想,见过我的眼泪的人,他(她)会是我性命相交的朋友了。


愛恨分明不吃回頭草

白羊座的人愛恨分明,愛就是愛,恨就是恨。不過A型白羊,對「恨」這個字眼沒多大興趣,他是不愛就是不愛而已。在愛情上,白羊是相當乾脆的,不喜拖泥帶水,屬於行動派,要求立見真章。他們最不能忍受一廂情願。

凡是白羊決定不要的東西,絕不會再撿回來,否則他無顏面對自己。不吃回頭草,也是白羊座人好強的證據。由於白羊座對愛情具有童話格,要求純潔、唯一與童稚心的戀情,與舊情人復燃愛曲當然是白羊座不屑的。

談戀愛時,白羊座的人是不會騙您的,大可放心。但是他的愛意來得快,去得快。除非您有超強的吸引力,一旦一頭白羊陷入不可自拔的情網時,您要抽身,也就很難了。那將會是悲劇的下場。您也得不到好處。


我就曾经想过吃回头草,虽然最后都没成事,唉!或许爱是会令一个人改变的吧?


樂觀乃天性不是不悲觀

白羊座天性樂觀,但長大後遭遇到的事了,他們也會悲觀到了極點。只不過悲觀歸悲觀,既然不想死,活下去就得樂觀點,日子才會有趣些。因此白羊座的人只不過是不把悲觀當一回事,並不是不悲觀。而他們樂觀的天性極具感染力,您得穩著點,以免誤陷入一塌糊塗的樂觀絕地之中。

白羊行使俠義的性格,使他能結交許多剖心相見的朋友。但是他對朋友的要求也很高,不少人受不了白羊座對朋友的殷殷期許。自然啦,白羊對情人、對丈夫(或妻子)、對同事,也都有些標準在心中測量。與標準不符時,他便會覺沮喪、食慾不振。現實的人永難成為白羊座人的朋友。


对的,个人觉得,发生的已经发生了,悲观又能怎样,倒不如去面对解决!


爆發型的浪漫

白羊座的人當然是浪漫的,但是是屬於爆發型的浪漫。公羊、母羊皆如此。一點一滴積出來的浪漫,對白羊座來说,強度不夠,只覺累贅、厚重,這種浪漫容易分叉、斷裂。白羊座喜歡在慶典的夜晚,與情人並肩仰望煙火在夜空中爆放出光芒萬丈,而那也正象徵著愛情發生的瞬間,浪漫不過了。

當白羊座處於浪漫的瞬間,幾乎沒有什麼事可以挪動他們的感性。浪漫過後他顯然全已清醒,接下來端看那瞬間爆發的浪漫,到底能在他的記憶中存留多,久才能知他到底有多在乎曾經發生過的感動。

因此,您也可以推論出,工作、事業、婚姻、友情都不在白羊浪漫的範疇中,他對這些反是以細水長流的方式經營。
「徒步越過愛琴島是可能的,您只要逐島跳過去就行了」


嗯,“你”就还留在我的脑海里,两年后的今天,你都还在,唉!


正經八百的,會要他的命

白羊座出現在高貴、華麗的場合中,不會顯得格格不入,但是他自己卻難受得要命,因為他不能自在地蹺二郎腿,不能在高興時放浪形骸。正經八百的,會要他的命。

一般社會上流行的娛樂,白羊座都能欣然加作,但是他本來就有的獨特娛樂品味也不會放棄。也就是說怹很愛聽歌劇,但也喜歡到卡拉OK高歌一曲。基本上,白羊座的是很雅、俗共賞的。他們的適應很強,但又隨遇而安。在白羊的心中總是有一個更好的天堂在等著他。

白羊座的人對於生命力旺盛的人,特別注意。他喜歡被專家領導,不會隨便懷疑,一旦懷疑便打入十八層地獄。而他成為專家時,也不要隨便懷疑他,如果您不能拿出令他心服口服的證據,您將永不能再從他那得到訓誨。


对,白羊是可以很高贵大方的,可是都是装出来的,白羊比较向往无拘无束吧。


若不能舉足輕重,寧可自動消失

白羊座的人常因過度自信而衝動行事,又因衝動行事失敗而自毀信心。對白羊座的人來說,三思而後行是比較好的。在一個團體中,白羊座若不能舉足輕重,他寧可自動消失,並且不會以任何藉口。消失就消失了,這不是我的王國,他把自己在團體中的角色看得很重,相對地也願意承擔更多的責任,他不會認為自己可以不勞而獲。一旦勞了還是沒有獲得的時候就絕不戀棧。

他的自尊心強,您的一句「老實說」會傷他的心許久。如果您問他會不會表演空中飛人,他心中盤算自己應可勝任,便會點頭,答應您一個月後的表演,這一個月中他就會勤加苦練。而對於自己沒有把握的事,白羊座的人是不至於去強出頭的。


愛情是一生中最大的課題

白羊是很容易不耐煩的。在戀愛中,您得把那些小把戲收藏起來,他可受不了什麼「考驗」之類的事。既然愛他就應該信任他。不管公羊、母羊,他們對愛情都是十分認真的。對他們來說,愛情有兩種,一種是真的,一種是假的。假情愛情,極易發生在衝動而善感的白羊座身上,但很快會結束,並且會像是從未發生過。真正的愛情,是白羊座一生中最大的課題,他總覺得這個課題怎麼寫也寫不完整。

友情與愛情是白羊座不可或缺的兩大支柱。即使他十七歲時就有了結婚的對象,但到了七十歲若未結婚,他也仍在心中保有一個結婚對象,這是他的樂天知命所使然。


相信小精靈的孩子

僅管白羊座的人長得人高馬大,他仍是個孩子,他一直保有天真的一面,即使長大了,他還是相信世界上有小精靈的存在。有時白羊座的人相當幼稚,可是他絕不是不聰明,他的反應可快得很呢!

他有帶頭當第一的強烈欲望,做第二免談。所以他做起事來動作很快,甚少優柔寡斷。他非常自信,深信自己處理事務的能力無人可及。他也從不向命運低頭,僅管挫折一次又一次的出現。他信任所有的人,很少會去懷疑別人是否會對他不利,而他的勇敢也使他能不斷地站在最前面。

與白羊座的人相處時,您必須注意一些重要的關鍵,他是個喜歡爭先的人,這是所有白羊座的天性,所以有時您必須要有心理準備。他說話或做事都相當直接,很少會跟您拐彎抹角,他也相當誠實,只要一說謊就很容易被人察覺。

他是個不擅處理細節的人,所以,如果您想請他處理些較細微的工做的話,倒不如自己做還來的恰當些。


对!绝对是对的!因为我都还很幼稚!哈哈。



PURPLE - 个人觉得很准
BROWN - 个人觉得完全不准
NO HIGHLIGHT - 不置可否
RED - 本人所题笔

Definition of BOSS

When I Take a long time to finish,
I am slow.
When my boss takes a long time,
He is THOROUGH


When I don't do it,
I am lazy.
When my boss does not do it,
He is BUSY


When I do something without being told,
I am trying to be smart.
When my boss does the same,
He takes the INITIATIVE

When I please my boss, I
I am apple polishing.
When my boss pleases his boss,
He is COOPERATING

When I make a mistake,
I' am an idiot.
When my boss makes a mistake,
He's only HUMAN

When I am out of the office,
I am wondering around.
When my boss is out of the office,
He's on BUSINESS

When I am on a day off sick,
I am always sick.
When my boss is a day off sick,
He must be VERY ILL

When I apply for leave,
I must be going for an interview .
When my boss applies for leave,
It's because he's OVERWORKED

When I do good,
My boss never remembers,
When I do wrong,
He never FORGETS


(PS: This is applicable to each superior level as well; i.e. senior, supervisor, manager etc.)

纯属发泄,请勿对号入座。

狗眼看人低吗?

还是。。。

妒忌心作祟?

对!我是一个在软件公司工作,但却完全不懂得 programming 或 coding 的人。
那又怎样?

请记得 - 我是受聘为品质管理的!我并不是软件工程师!

所以,谢谢你们的好意!不过,请不必再不断地提醒我了!也请不必那我来做比较,大家工作岗位不同,没什么好比较的。我自有我的工作压力,所以也请不必帮我衡量。真得谢谢你们的好意!不过,如有不满,就请直接跟老板反映吧。我并不介意;我反而介意你们不断地说嘴。

就当是我小气吧。
我真的没你们想象中的大方。
对我来说,同事间或朋友间的玩笑是应该适可而止的。过了火位,就会有杀伤力了。

Yeah, i am working in an IT Software Company, but i totally know nothing about programming or coding.
SO WHAT!?

Please remember that i was hired as a QA Engineer but not a Software Engineer.

So, thanks a lot for all the comments. And also all the remind, seriously, thanks! But i don't need all that, i do know that i am super poor in programming or coding. Really, i do know that. So, please don't keep on remind me on that.
And also please don't make comparison with me. Different position, there is no similarity that can make comparison. I have my own work pressure, as well as you have yours. Please don't judge for me. If any un-satisfactory, please go ahead and highlight to whoever in charge. I don't mind for people feedback. Just make a favor, please don't take me or my job functions as a story and go tell everyone whenever there is a chance.

Sorry to say that, but just take it as i am petty. But i really don't like all the gossips around. I can accept jokes between colleagues or friends. But not the same joke topic that happen everyday or even every seconds. For me, funny jokes that over its limit, can still hurting people.

THANKS!!!

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

原来 。。。

原来 。。。


它早就已经死了 。。。


(是没有奢望了,但也已经装不下其他事物了)

Comparison

God... it is either i am not a Malaysian, or i am totally not human being? I just don't get it! Why people just love to compare between each other?

Study time - compare result?
In relationship - compare whose partner more perfect?
Working time - compare salary? compare position? even compare work load?
Retired time - compare whose children visit self more? compare who have more grandchildren?

SO WHAT!? What can we get throughout all these comparison?

After comparing,
Result will be better? Can get straight A?
Partner will become more perfect? More handsome / pretty?
Boss will increase salary? Boss will promote? Or enlighten the work load?
Grandchildren can be double up? 2 grandchildren become 4?

Is it all these possible?
If so, i will go and compare my salary with colleagues everyday so that boss will increase my salary everytime i do so!!!
Duh... DREAMING......

I just don't get it. Typical Malaysian behavious? Or typical human behaviour on this earth?

Regardless the location, the time, people are making comparison among self each and every seconds. GOD......

* SPEECHLESS *

Monday, 16 November 2009

2012

21st December 2012 - END OF THE WORLD!?

How true is it... i don't know! But i do know, the 1st day showing of "2012", it is definitely END OF GSC WEBSITE!!! The website is totally crash!!!

- unable to login as normal
- unable to pre-booking as normal
- unable to do e-payment as normal

And... WOW!!! My housemate and myself... we use the whole Friday night to try to get the ticket, and we only able to get 4 tickets (which all seperate seats) on Saturday midnight, AND the whole cinema is FULL!!!

I wonder, if everyone are so interested to know how we all going to die on 2012??? HAHA...

For me, it is simple... I don't really care if it is end of the world or whatsoever, as long as i die by my family side... I AM FINE!!!

Haha...

Thursday, 12 November 2009

What A Life!?

Life... is really tiring, especially working life.

Maybe i am still too naive... maybe my mindset still stop at the stage when i am still an innocent student... maybe i just not suitable to work... maybe i am just a freak that cannot work together with other people... ......

Anyhow, no matter how many "maybe" exist out there, life goes on! Time will not stop for me, or anyone else. Whatever the problem it is, i still have to face it.

Ya, problem, i will face it myself. But how? I may need advice from some expert... politician maybe?

HAHA...

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

累!

只是想大声说:


我真的累了!!!!!!

朋友?是这样子的吗?

其实是蛮久一下的事情了,只是藉着无聊的时间,随便写写来抒发一下。

朋友 1
金钱问题。。。据说经济紧据,没钱交房租,就电联希望我可以帮忙。不是什么大数目,而且我们都可以说是经过患难的好兄弟。没必要考虑,一口我就答应了。不过,重点来了,他人不在大马,银行户口也不是在大马开的。经过了一轮打探,知道了是有蛮复杂的手续得办,然后才能汇钱过去。很不巧,那一阵子,公司里还蛮忙的,不能请假去办。几经辛苦,终于找到可以信赖的朋友代办。可是已经联络不上朋友 1 了,显然是生气了。就这样失去联络了。

朋友 2
莫名其妙。。。故事很简短,我因事爽约,朋友 2 就疏远我了。注:朋友 2 也是多年的老朋友了。

在这里,我并不是要去声讨谁对谁错,也知道自己有不对的地方。可是,朋友是这样当的吗?多年的友情,原来是可以说断就断?还是我在他们心目中,根本就是不值得留恋的普通朋友而已?是我傻?是我笨?是我单纯?很容易就把整个心放进友情里。。。原来我只是当没有利用价值时,就可以随手丢弃的垃圾而已。

注:类似的个案还有很多。。。

或许我真的是一个不值得大家深交的朋友吧???

无言。。。。。。

遗失的感觉

  1. 一整天对着手机发呆,等着某一个人的讯息。
  2. 一整天疑神疑鬼,老以为手机在响,以为有讯息进来。
  3. 可以对着电话储存的讯息发呆,然后自己坐在那傻笑。
  4. 电话聊天时,超舍不得挂掉。
  5. 如 [3] - 对着手机储存的照片发呆,然后时而想念,时而傻笑。
  6. 满脑子都装满某一个人。
  7. 尽管生活怎么不如意,又或遭遇什么悲痛的事件,一见到某一个人,所有的伤痛都烟消云散。
  8. 作为一个自主独立的成年人,却自然而然地向某一个人报备自己的行踪,就好像那是再自然不过的事情。
  9. 把某一个人的缺点看成是优点,出糗看成是可爱的行为。
  10. 当某一个人有意或无意做出一些伤害到自己的行为时,自己不是在考虑要不要原谅对方,而是在伤脑筋,要怎么逗对方开心,使对方不会因此而内疚。

谁可以帮我找回这些遗失了的感觉啊???

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

一个成熟的爱情

有一位心理学家曾写过,一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情必须经过四个阶段,那就是:

- 共存 (Codependent)
- 反依赖 (Counterdependent)
- 独立 (Independent)
- 共生 (Interdependent)

第一个阶段:
共存
这是热恋期间,情人不论何时何地总希望能黏在一起。

第二个阶段:
反依赖
等到情感稳定后,至少会有一方想要有多一点自己的时间做自己想做的事,这时另一方就会感到被冷落。

第三个阶段:
独立
这是第二个阶段的延续,要求更多独立自主的时间。

第四个阶段:
共生
这时新的相处之道已经成形,你的他/她已经成为你最亲的人。你们在一起相互扶持,一起开创属于你们自己的人生。你们在一起不会互相牵绊,而会互相成长。

但是,大部分的人都通过不了第二和第三阶段,而选择分手,这是非常可惜的。

很多事只要好好沟通都会没事的,不要耍个性,不要想太多,要互相信任,这样,第二和第三阶段的时间就会缩短。

和所爱的人相遇相恋是非常不容易的,不要轻言放弃。

两人相聚是因为有缘,相知是因为有心,真的得好好珍惜这福分。希望能给大家一些启示和领悟,并惜缘。

我们会渐渐变成我们所爱的人。你和他本来没有相同之处,外表不相像,性格也南辕北撤,一旦爱上了,年深日久,你会惊讶你的眼睛有点像他的眼睛,他的微笑也有点像你的微笑。你们走路的步伐也有点相似,说话的语气也越来越相像。原来我们会变成我们所爱的人。

你本来喜欢脚踏实地的人,而他一向比较轻佻,但你们爱上了,他竟会不知不觉变成一个老实人,这个改变,连他自己也不曾察觉。他本来喜欢活泼的女孩,却爱上拘谨的你,这些日子,你竟会越来越活泼,你差点认不出自己。我们会逐渐变成对方理想中的人,这种改变绝对不是刻意的。两个人越爱得长久,气质也越来越相近。你曾经以为他不是你梦寐以求的那种类型,然而,有一天,你会惊讶的发现,他已经变成你喜欢的那种类型,你不必再到处寻觅,他就是你要找的人。深深爱着一个人的时候,你原来真的会一点一点的失去自 己,为什么你还会觉得快乐呢?大概是因为你在失去的时候,你把他的气质和微笑都赚回来了。

幸福很单纯,所以要很单纯的人才容易获得。真爱就是不轻言放弃。

Monday, 9 November 2009

林宥嘉 - 說謊

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來并不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩 讓人家不安
才會 結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔障
你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣


我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
你懂我的 我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊 請別以為你有多難忘
笑是真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳
沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口 聞得到玫瑰花香
被你一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
你知道的 我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊 是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣


我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
愛一個人 沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊 人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊 是愛情說謊
它帶你來 騙我說 渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊 祝你做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你就遺忘


************


对。。。我没有说谎。。。我又何必说谎来骗自己呢?

Should I Leave?

Damn... Everytime Pui Kwan come back, or meet with her, sure she persuade me to go UK for further study...

In fact, actually myself also wish to go UK regardless for whatever reason. As i was studied there for my last semester (transfer from TARC) (for around 3 months plus), i was very enjoy the lifestyle there. And my current working here is also not so satisfying, this make me attract more towards her persuasion.

Haha... now i am quite struggle about which decision should i make? Go for my dream place and earn more money? Or stay still for my mum's sake?

Sigh... who can help me make the decision???

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

我是白痴!

哈哈。。。到现在才知道,原来我是这么幼稚的。今天终于自尝恶果了。哈哈。。。原来以前我不是哭不出来,只是没有可以领到我哭的人事物而已。今天终于尝到滋味了。哈哈。。。根本就不想哭,也哭不出声来,可是眼泪却不停地滴,连自己都感到奇怪。心里面什么感觉都没有,一片死寂,就只有眼泪不停地滴。就连以前的第一位都没能让我的眼泪滴下,现在却想停都不能。很讽刺!算了。。。都搞不清自己在写些什么了,纯粹在乱打,发泄一下。好了,停了,再打就快把电脑砸了。唉。。。就让自己沉淀在黑暗中吧。。。

朋友

原来我还是有知心朋友的。。。

朋友,谢谢你!

其实还是你们最了解我!哈哈。我还是我,还是那个你们眼中“冷血”的我。我不需要安慰,不需要可怜,更不需要施舍!

哥。。。你随随便便敷衍几句,就能激起我的倔强!
Jimmy 。。。你的冷言冷语更能让我清醒!
Alex 。。。你转移话题的技巧还真好!

或许那个在你们眼中,不需要任何人的我,才是最真的我吧?

跌倒了,哭哭啼啼又能怎样?你们的漠不关心反而能让我更快好起来!或许你们才是最了解我的人吧?

怎样都好,只要有家人在,有朋友在,我就会没事的!谢谢你们!

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

双子个性

曾经。。。 我也是一个天真无邪,直话直说的人。可是,不知道从几时起,我也渐渐地改变了。

变得:

- 学会了隐藏自己的情绪
- 学会了 “对人欢笑,背人愁”
- 学会了笑脸迎人,口蜜腹剑
- 更加学会了让眼泪往肚子里吞

渐渐地,我开始变得麻木了。也开始混浠了自己的感觉,分不清出什么是伪装,什么是真实了。伪装和真实之间的分界线不见了,两者也合而为一了。而自己竟然是偏向伪装那一边,也渐渐地忘了那一个真实的自我。

那。。。 我还是我吗?

一个逻辑性的问题。。。 一双鞋子;鞋带断了,换了新鞋带;鞋底没花了,换了新鞋底;内垫破了,也换了新内垫;那,鞋子还是原来的鞋子吗?

或许有人会回答说,那将是一个全新的自我。
而我则会回答说,我比较喜欢以前那个纯朴的自己;我不喜欢现在这个戴上了面具,穿上了全副武装,过分保护自己的伪装。

可是我还可以回到从前吗?
答案是: 不可能!!!

唉。。。

其实,每个人都有自己专属的一幅伪装。每个人都隐藏着不为人知的另一面。
原来,我也拥有和你那双子座很相像的一幅伪装。
原来,在这伪装底下,我也和你一样渴望拥有幸福的。

唉。。。

我的幸福。。。 你在哪里?

Monday, 2 November 2009

心放空了

我累了。。。
也终于明白什么是叫做 “心放空了”。。。
大约两年前,遇上了你。。。
糊里糊涂下,就爱上了你。。。
不要问我为什么会爱上。。。
我的答案是。。。
“我不知道”。。。
可能爱情本来就是没有道理可言的吧。。。
爱一个人是不需要任何理由的。。。
爱上了就是爱上了。。。
就这么简单。。。
相对的。。。
离开一个人也是不需要任何理由的。。。
没感觉了,不爱了,那就离开。。。
可是我是用了很大的勇气才离开你。。。
我知道自己不是你所需要的。。。
所以我选择离开。。。
谢谢你。。。
在你身上,我学会了什么叫做 “爱情”。。。
也明白了原来成全自己所爱的人,让他自由,其实也是一种幸福。。。
后来。。。
我又用了很久才学会放下。。。
我以为自己做到了。。。
真的以为自己做到了。。。
其实我是做到了“放下”。。。
可是。。。
原来我对所谓的 “爱情” 已经失去信心了。。。
过后几段恋情。。。
唉。。。
只能用 “荒唐” 来形容。。。
而今。。。
当以为自己再次把握幸福时。。。
再一次尝试了 “失去” 的滋味。。。
这次是对方选择了离开。。。
唉。。。
可是。。。
怎么这次并没要太大的震撼。。。
原来你对我的 “后遗症” 真的是很大。。。
我的心已经麻木了。。。
好像对什么人事物都没有什么感觉。。。
这就是心放空了吗?
我该怎么办啊?
我还应该继续追求爱情吗?
我该怎么办啊?

Thursday, 29 October 2009

寂寞?好了!?


拼命的奢望 闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手 就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的 心脏

夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了

坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝 我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长
关于爱 感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放 oh~

没有你 心放空了 寂寞 好了


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很有味道的一首歌。。。
一整晚就只重复地听着它。。。
不期然地,所有的一切回忆又在脑海里走马花似的重温了一遍。。。
感觉很悲伤,可是这都是属于自己的过去。。。
唉。。。
原来所有的一切一切。。。
以前看得比性命都还重要的一切,在此刻,就只是一段段缠绕着自己的回忆而已;重温过了,缅怀过了,就得放开,一点点都不能留下来,因为它已经不再属于我了!
怎样都好,谢谢以前的某位,没有你,也没有今天的我。。。
这是真的!!!
我的人生已经因你而改变了,我也变了。。。
我还能回去吗?
回到过去那个天真的我?
还能吗?
我还能变回那个乐观的我吗?
原来你说对了,你对我的“后遗症”的确是很严重的。
不过这些都过去了,因旻佑的歌曲而勾起的一切,也就只是过去悲伤的回忆而已。
到此为止吧!
我会好好把握现在,珍惜所有,和创造未来的!
哈哈。。。
为我祈祷吧!!!
啊!!!
题外话将太多了。。。
主题是推荐旻佑的这首新歌。。。
太棒了!!!
哈哈。。。
好久没有这种感觉了!
旻佑的歌声真的有种魔力!
大家就好好支持吧!
蔡旻佑 - 寂寞,好了


Wednesday, 28 October 2009

夢·想·家

《夢·想·家》 是潘裕文首張國語專輯

首波主打歌為 《最想做的事》。

全碟十首歌的歌詞特別邀來幸福系作者姚若龍量身打造,這也是姚若龍老師入行20年來頭一遭擔綱全專輯歌詞執筆。


阿潘的首张个人专辑,一定要好好支持一下!!!

怎么了?

刚刚无聊,就去拜读了“阿潘”的部落格,本来还蛮感动一下的说。

可是却发现自己越来越麻木了,好像是对任何事情都没什么感觉了;只要是事不关己的,就会满不在乎的,就算是感动的感觉也只是一闪而逝。

我到底是怎么了?
还是人长大了都是会变得这样?
是因为社会工作压力而慢慢地变成麻木不仁吗?
还是有其他什么原因?
有谁可以告诉我?

Tuesday, 27 October 2009

省钱大计!!!

哈哈。。。

如题:就是要省钱!

计划如下:

房屋供期 + 车子供期 = 1000 令吉
保险供期 = 300 令吉
房租 + 水电杂费 = 400 令吉
车油 = 300 令吉
生活费 (其中包括了1天3餐,周末娱乐等等) = 600 令吉 (1星期才有150令吉,少得可怜)

那我的储蓄呢?
就是那剩下来的200令吉咯。。。

哇靠!根本就不是什么大计嘛!!!
呜呜。。。。。。

Friday, 23 October 2009

Quotations

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's no thing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

1.誤會; 2.釘子; 3.且慢下手; 4. 寬大

1.誤會 :

早年在美國阿拉斯加地方,有一對年輕人結婚,婚後生育, 他的太太因難產而死,遺下一孩子。
他忙生活,又忙於看家,因沒有人幫忙看孩子,就訓練一隻狗, 那狗聰明聽話,能照顧小孩,咬著奶瓶餵奶給孩子喝,撫養孩子。
有一天,主人出門去了,叫牠照顧孩子。
他到了別的鄉村,因遇大雪,當日不能回來。
第二天才趕回家,狗立即聞聲出來迎接主人。
他把房門開一看,到處是血, 抬頭一望,床上也是血,孩子不見了,狗在身邊,滿口也是血, 主人發現這種情形,以為狗性發作,把孩子吃掉了, 大怒之下,拿起刀來向著狗頭一劈,把狗殺死了。
之後,忽然聽到孩子的聲音,又見他從床下爬了出來, 於是抱起孩子;雖然身上有血,但並未受傷。
他很奇怪,不知究竟是怎麼一回事,再看看狗身, 腿上的肉沒有了,旁邊有一隻狼,口裡還咬著狗的肉; 狗救了小主人,卻被主人誤殺了,這真是天下最令人驚奇的誤會。
註:
誤會的事,是人往往在不瞭解、無理智、無耐心、缺少思考、 未能多方體諒對方,反省自己,感情極為衝動的情況之下所發生。
誤會一開始,即一直只想到對方的千錯萬錯;因此,會使誤會越陷越深, 弄到不可收拾的地步,人對無知的動物小狗發生誤會, 尚且會有如此可怕嚴重的後果,這樣人與人之間的誤會,則其後果更是難以想像。


2.釘子 :

有一個男孩有著很壞的脾氣,於是他的父親就給了他一袋釘子; 並且告訴他,每當他發脾氣的時候就釘一根釘子在後院的圍籬上。
第一天,這個男孩釘下了37 根釘子。
慢慢地每天釘下的數量減少了。
他發現控制自己的脾氣要比釘下那些釘子來得容易些。
終於有一天這個男孩再也不會失去耐性亂發脾氣,他告訴他的父親這件事, 父親告訴他,現在開始每當他能控制自己的脾氣的時候,就拔出一根釘子。
一天天地過去了,最後男孩告訴他的父親,他終於把所有釘子都拔出來了。
父親握著他的手來到後院說:你做得很好,我的好孩子。 但是看看那些圍籬上的洞,這些圍籬將永遠不能回復成從前。
你生氣的時候說的話將像這些釘子一樣留下疤痕。
如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀,不管你說了多少次對不起,那個傷口將永遠存在。
話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受。
註:
人與人之間常常因為一些彼此無法釋懷的堅持,而造成永遠的傷害。
如果我們都能從自己做起,開始寬容地看待他人, 相信你(妳)一定能收到許多意想不到的結果....
幫別人開啟一扇窗, 也就是讓自己看到更完整的天空....


3.且慢下手 :

大多數的同仁都很興奮,因為單位裡調來一位新主管,據說是個能人,專門被派來 整頓業務;可是日一天天過去,新主管卻毫無作為,每天彬彬有禮進辦公室, 便躲在裡面難得出門,那些本來緊張得要死的壞份子,現在反而更猖獗了。
「他那裡是個能人嘛!根本是個老好人,比以前的主管更容易唬!」 四個月過去,就在真正努力為新主管感到失望時, 新主管卻發威了--壞份子一律開革,能人則獲得晉昇。
下手之快,斷事之準,與四月表現保守的他,簡直像是全然換個人。
年終聚餐時,新主管在酒過三巡之後致詞:
「相信大家對我新到任期間的表現,和後來的大刀闊斧,一定感到不解, 現在聽我說個故事,各位就明白了:
「我有位朋友,買了棟帶著大院的房子, 他一搬進去,就將那院子全面整頓,雜草樹一律清除,改種自己新買的花卉, 某日原先的屋主往訪,進門大吃一驚的問:『那最名貴的牡丹哪裡去了?』 我這位朋友才發現,他竟然把牡丹當草給剷了。 後來他又買了一棟房子,雖然院子更是雜亂,他卻是按兵不動, 果然冬天以為是雜樹的植物,春天裡開了繁花; 春天以為是野草的,夏天裡成了錦蔟;半年都沒有動靜的小樹,秋天居然紅了葉。 直到暮秋,它才真正認清哪些是無用的植物, 而大力剷除,並使所有珍貴的草木得以保存。」
說到這兒,主管舉起杯來: 「讓我敬在座的每一位,因為如果這辦公室是個花園,你們就都是其間的珍木, 珍木不可能一年到頭開花結果,只有經過長期的觀察才認得出啊!


4.寬大 :

這是一個甫自越戰歸來的士兵的故事。
他從舊金山打電話給他的父母,告訴他們:「爸媽,我回來了,可是我有個不情之請。 我想帶一個朋友同我一起回家。」
「當然好啊!」他們回答
「我們會很高興見到的。」
不過兒子又繼續下去「可是有件事我想先告訴你們,他在越戰裡受了重傷, 少了一條胳臂和一隻腳,他現在走投無路,我想請他回來和我們一起生活。」
「兒子,我很遺撼,不過或許我們可以幫他找個安身之處。」 父親又接著說
「兒子,你不知道自己在說些什麼。 像他這樣殘障的人會對我們的生活造成很大的負擔。 我們還有自己的生活要過,不能就讓他這樣破壞了。 我建議你先回家然後忘了他,他會找到自己的一片天空的。」
就在此時卻l掛上了電話,他的父母再也沒有他的消息了。
幾天後,這對父母接到了來自舊金山警局的電話, 告訴他們親愛的兒子已經墜樓身亡了。
警方相信這只是單純的自殺案件。
於是他們傷心欲絕地飛往舊金山,並在警方帶領之下到停屍間去辨認兒子的遺體。
那的確是他們的兒子沒錯,但驚訝的是兒子居然,只有一條胳臂和一條腿。
故事中的父母就和我們大多數人一樣。
要去喜愛面貌姣好或談吐風趣的人很容易, 但是要喜歡那些造成我們不便和不快的人卻太難了。
我們總是寧願和那些不如我們健康,美麗或聰明的人保持距離。
然而有些人卻不會對我們如此殘酷。
他們會無怨無悔地愛我們,不論我們多麼糟總是願意接納我們。


今晚在你入睡之前,請試著去接納他人, 不論他們是怎麼樣的人;請用心去了解那些不同於我們的人。

每個人的心裡都藏著一種神奇的東西稱為「友情」, 你不知道它究竟是如何發生何時發生,但你卻知道它總會帶給我們特殊的禮物。

朋友就像是稀奇的寶物。

他們帶來歡笑,激勵我們成功。

他們傾聽我們內心的話,與我們分享每一句讚美。

他們的心房永遠為我們而敞開。

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試想:

朋友,您一路看下來之後;一定有很深的感觸吧。

那麼,在對別人有所決定與判斷之前,首先,請想想這是否是一個「誤會」, 然後,請考慮您是否一定要釘下這個「 釘子」, 如果可以的話,請「且慢下手 」。 因為,當您對別人「寬大」之時,即是對您自己寬大。

麥當勞的故事

在我家附近,開了一家新的麥當勞。

耀眼的M字招牌,馬上變成了一個顯目的指標,無論是指引車子裡的司機,還是指引肚子裡的蛔蟲。

而我,因為一直在外面求學的關係,所以始終沒有機會踏入這間距離我家僅只100公尺的世界級小,麥當勞。

直到那一天,我回家的那天,媽媽剛好回了澎湖,姐姐則去參加台南的朋友婚宴,平常食物香氣不斷的廚房,登時空蕩起來。

偌大的家,剩下我一個。

於是,我下了決心,踏入就在我家隔壁的黃色大,麥當勞。

推開門,裡頭還是那樣清潔的讓人心曠神怡,麥當勞叔叔掛著親切的笑容迎接著我。

於是,我點了一號餐,非常輕鬆愉快的找了一張靠窗的座位坐下,吃著美味的漢堡,思考著麥當勞為什麼會風靡全台灣的原因。

因為麥當勞行銷策略是針對「小孩」吧。

再也沒有什麼偉大的願望,能比得上小孩滿足笑容的。

突然,我看到了兩個人,他們在一瞬間就吸引了我的注意力。

因為他們跟這間整潔嶄新的建築物,一點都不搭配。

他們是一個父親,還有一個小孩。

父親身上泛黃的襯衫,東破了一個洞,西破了一個洞,沾滿了不知道是汽油還是黑油的油漬, 一張臉略顯消瘦,尤其是被太陽不斷洗禮的皮膚,更顯得他飽受風霜,如果我沒猜錯,他應該是個工人吧。

而小孩跟他父親比起來,並不算太瘦,但是若是跟麥當勞裡頭,任何一個握著飛機跑來跑去的小朋友來比,他實在太黑太小了。

兩個人,慢慢的走進了麥當勞,從他們遲疑的步伐和四處張望的態度,可以猜測他們應該是第一次來到這種速食店。

「我們要一份薯條,一杯可樂,還要兩個豬肉堡...」父親結結巴巴的說著, 「總共150元。」店員臉上依然是麥當勞招牌微笑。

「150元?好...好...」父親低下頭,用那隻又黑又髒的手,在口袋裡不斷的掏著,叮噹叮噹,一口袋的銅板,都撒在潔白的點餐桌上。

父親拿著銅板,慢慢的數著。

「10元,20元,30元,40元,50元,55元,56元....」 店員倒還沈的住氣,依然微笑,等待著顧客將手上的零錢點清。

可是我已 經看到幾個排在他們後面的年輕人,露出了不耐煩的表情。

突然,原本都不說話的小朋友,拉著父親髒破的襯衫,嚷著,「爸爸,我要那個車車,人家要那台車車....」 「車車玩具啊?」父親瞇著眼睛看了看那台玩具,又轉頭問店員,「請問加這玩具要多少錢?」 「要50元喔。」店員聲音微微提高,不知道是提醒父親,他手上的零錢可能不夠支付,還是為了讓他知難而退。

父親沒有說話,只是露出了為難的表情。

幾條皺紋被擠在他烏黑的額頭上,嘴角卻揚起了一陣苦笑。

這樣的表情,好深刻。

讓我幾乎忍不住,想放下了手上的漢堡,拿出還在我口袋的五十元。

可是最後,我卻沒動,因為我想知道父親的選擇。

「那.....小姐,抱歉....我不要那個漢堡了,一個漢堡就好了。」 店員遲疑了一下,很快的按下更改鍵,一個可能是父親這輩子唯一一次吃到的漢堡,變成了一個玩具汽車。

也在這個時候,父親點完了錢,他收起了僅剩在桌上的兩三個零錢, 一手端起那個木質的盤子,另一手則牽起了小朋友的手,慢慢的走向他們的座位。

那瞬間,我看到了身為父親的驕傲。

原本屈婁的身體,突然變得挺拔起來。

而他的小朋友好興奮,不斷的跳著笑著,發出撲嚕撲嚕的汽車聲音,玩著他的新玩具。

睜著眼睛,偷偷地看著他們。

父親什麼都沒吃,只是掛著非常滿足的微笑,看著興奮異常的小朋友,一會玩玩具,一會抓著薯條,用各種姿勢品嚐這份得來不易的美食。

我靜靜的看著,突然發現,我必須找個地方,找隻筆,或許是網路,記載下當時父親的表情。

他瞇著眼睛,非常疼惜的看著他眼前的小朋友,那幾道皺紋又在他的額頭縮緊,只是這次,他是真的笑了。

不再是苦笑。

而是一種非常滿足的笑容。

為什麼麥當勞能夠席捲全世界?

因為父母的愛,能夠席捲全世界。

我彷彿感受到了他那份滿足,低下頭,笑著把我手上的漢堡吃完。

【後段】

我吃完了漢堡,終於拿出了我口袋裡的五十元,走到了櫃台。

「請再給我一個漢...」我話才說到一半,卻發現...那個年輕的女店員已經從後面端出了一個剛出爐的漢堡,對我微微一笑,然後離開櫃台,走向父子坐的那張餐桌。

走過我身旁的時候,她還不忘俏皮的眨了眨眼睛。「這個漢堡,已經有人訂了。」

Thursday, 22 October 2009

有没有搞错啊!?

如题。。。

真是的!有没有搞错啊!?
真的有一种无名的冲动,想让粗口就这样脱口而出。。。
他妈的!!!
这是什么世界啦!?有没有天理啊!?

唉。。。
真是的!
刚刚读了一位朋友的部落格,他都写了一大堆自伤自怜的故事。

可是!!!
这样可怜的一个人儿。。。
都对我做了些什么啊?
妈的!!!
又有谁知道呢?

不公平!!!!!!

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

浪漫

老公是學理科的,當初喜歡他,是因為他的穩重,依靠在他的肩上有暖暖的踏實,三年的戀愛,兩年的婚姻,而我已倦了。

當初的喜歡,現在倦他的根源,我是個感性的小女人,敏感細膩,渴望浪漫,如孩提時代渴望美麗的糖果。

而他,卻天性不善於製造浪漫,木獨到讓我感受不到愛的氣息。

某天,終於鼓起勇氣說:我們分開吧。
他問:為什麼?
我說:倦了,就不需要理由了。

那個晚上,他只抽煙不說話。 我的心越來越涼,連挽留都不會表達的男人,他能給我什麼樣的快樂?

他 說:怎麼做你才可以改變?
人說秉性難改,我想我已經不對他抱什麼希望了。
望著他的眼睛,我慢慢地說:回答一個問題,如果你能答到我心裏就可以,比如我非常喜歡懸崖上的一朵花,而你去摘的結果是百分之百的死亡,你會不會摘給我?
他說:明天早晨告訴你答案好嗎?

我的心灰下去。

早晨醒來,他已經不在,只有一張寫滿字的紙壓在溫熱的牛奶杯子下。

第一行,就讓我涼透了。

親愛的,我不會去摘,但請容許我陳述不去摘的理由:
你只會用電腦打字,卻總把程式弄得一塌糊塗,然後對著鍵盤哭,我要留著手指給你整理程式; 你出門總是忘記帶鑰匙,我要留著雙腳跑回來給你開門;酷愛旅遊的你在自己的城市裏都常常迷路,我要留著眼睛給你帶路; 每月「老朋友」光臨時你總是全身冰涼,還肚子疼,我要留著掌心溫暖你的小腹; 你不愛出門,我擔心你會患上自閉症,留著嘴巴驅趕你的寂寞; 你總是盯著電腦,眼睛給糟蹋得不太好了,我要好好活著,等你老了,給你修剪指甲,幫你拔掉讓你懊惱得白髮,拉著你的手,在海邊享受美好的陽光和柔軟的沙灘,告訴你一朵花的顏色,像你青春的臉...... 所以,在我不能確定有人比我更愛你以前我不想去摘那朵花......

我的淚滴在紙上,開成晶瑩的花朵,抹淨淚,繼續往下看:

親愛的,如果你已經看完了,答案還讓你滿意,請你開門吧,我正站在門外,手裏提著你喜歡吃的鮮奶麵包......

拉開門,我看見他的臉,緊張得像個孩子,只會把捏著麵包的手在我眼前晃晃。

是的,是的,我確定,沒人比他更愛我,所以我不想要那朵花。

這就是愛情或者生活,被幸福平靜包圍時,一些平凡的愛意,總被渴望激情浪漫的心靈忽略, 愛在他因你而起的許多個微小不足道的動作裏,從來就沒有固定的模式,只要愛,可以是任何一種平淡無奇的形式。

花朵、浪漫,不過是浮在生活表面的淺淺點綴,它們的下面才是我們的生活。

幸福

有一個人,他生前善良而且熱心助人,所以在他死後,昇上天堂,做了天使。 他當了天使後,仍時常到凡間幫助人,希望能感受到幸福的味道。

有一天,他遇見一個農夫,農夫的樣子非常煩惱,他向天使訴說︰「我家的水牛剛死了,沒牠幫忙犁田,那我怎能下田工作呢?」 於是天使賜給他一隻健壯的水牛,農夫很高興,天使在他身上感受到幸福的味道。

又有一天,他遇見一個男人,男人非常沮喪,他向天使訴說︰「我的錢都被騙光,沒有盤纏回鄉。」 於是天使送給他銀兩做路費,男人很高興,天使在他身上感受到幸福的味道。

又一日,他遇見一個詩人,詩人年青、英俊、有才華而且富有,妻子貌美又溫柔,但他卻過得不快樂。 天使問他︰「你不快樂嗎?我能幫你嗎?」 詩人對天使說︰「我什麼也有,只欠一樣東西,你能夠給我嗎?」 天使回答說︰「可以。你要什麼我也可以給你。」 詩人直直的望著天使︰「我想要的是幸福。」 這下子把天使難倒了,天使想了想,說︰「我明白了。」 然後把詩人所擁有的都拿走。天使拿走詩人的才華,毀去他的容貌,奪去他的財產,和他妻子的性命,天使做完這些事後,便離去了。 一個月後,天使再回到詩人的身邊,他那時餓得半死,衣衫襤褸地在躺在地上掙扎。 於是,天使把他的一切還給他,然後,又離去了。半個月後,天使再去看看詩人。 這次,詩人摟著妻子,不住向天使道謝,因為,他得到幸福了。

你曾覺得孤獨?
你嚐過幸福的味道?
孤寂、璀璨本就是形容詞,所有的形容詞都是比較的。
沒嘗過孤寂,又怎知何謂璀璨的人生?
孤寂又豈非人生之必經?

人很奇怪,每每要到了失去後,才懂得珍惜。
其實,幸褔早就放就在你的面前。

肚子餓壞的時候,有一碗熱騰騰的拉麵放在你眼前,幸福。
累得半死的時候,撲上軟軟的床,也是幸福。
哭得要命的時候,旁邊溫柔的遞來一張紙巾,更是幸福。

幸福本沒有絕對的定義,平常一些小事也往往能撼動你的心靈,幸福與否,只在乎你的心怎麼看待。

朋友,你的心,充滿了幸福嗎?
還是,溢滿了哀愁?

愉快的心情,敲你的心門時,你就該大大的開放你的心門,讓愉快與你同在。


~ 懂得保護懂得珍惜 ~
~ 懂得把握懂得即時 ~

人体 24 小时使用手册

1∶00 人体进入浅睡阶段,易醒。此时头脑较清楚,熬夜者想睡反而睡不着。

2∶00 绝大多数器官处于一天中工作最慢的状态,肝脏却在紧张工作,生血气为人体排毒。

3∶00 进入深度睡眠阶段,肌肉完全放松。

4∶00 “黎明前的黑暗”时刻,老年人最易发生意外。血压处于一天中最低值,糖尿病病人易出现低血糖,心脑血管患者易发生心梗等。

5∶00 阳气逐渐升华,精神状态饱满。

6∶00 血压开始升高,心跳逐渐加快。高血压患者得吃降压药了。

7∶00 人体免疫力最强。吃完早饭,营养逐渐被人体吸收。

8∶00 各项生理激素分泌旺盛,开始进入工作状态。

9∶00 适合打针、手术、做体检等。此时人体气血活跃,大脑皮层兴奋,痛感降低。

10∶00 工作效率最高。

10∶00-11∶00属于人体的第一个黄金时段。心脏充分发挥其功能,精力充沛,不会感到疲劳。

12∶00 紧张工作一上午后,需要休息。

12∶00-13∶00是最佳"子午觉"时间。不宜疲劳作战,最好躺着休息半小时至一小时。

14∶00 反应迟钝。易有昏昏欲睡之感,人体应激能力降低。

15∶00 午饭营养吸收后逐渐被输送到全身,工作能力开始恢复。

15∶00-17∶00为人体第二个黄金时段。最适宜开会、公关、接待重要客人。

16∶00 血糖开始升高,有虚火者此时表现明显。阳虚、肺结核等患者的脸部最红。

17∶00 工作效率达到午后时间的最高值,也适宜进行体育锻炼。

18∶00 人体敏感度下降,痛觉随之再度降低。

19∶00 最易发生争吵。此时是人体血压波动的晚高峰,人们的情绪最不稳定。

20∶00 人体进入第三个黄金阶段。记忆力最强,大脑反应异常迅速。

20∶00-21∶00适合做作业、阅读、创作、锻炼等。

22∶00 适合梳洗。呼吸开始减慢,体温逐渐下降。最好在十点半泡脚后上床,能很快入睡。

23∶00 阳气微弱,人体功能下降,开始逐渐进入深度睡眠,一天的疲劳开始缓解。

24∶00 气血处于一天中的最低值,除了休息,不宜进行任何活动。

Thursday, 8 October 2009

平安

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

南 无 啊 弥 陀 佛

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Wallet

As I walked home one freezing day, I stumbled on a wallet someone had lost in the street. I picked it up and looked inside to find some identification so I could call the owner. But the wallet contained only three dollars and a crumpled letter that looked as if it had been in there for years.

The envelope was worn and the only thing that was legible on it was the return address. I started to open the letter, hoping to find some clue. Then I saw the dateline--1924. The letter had been written almost sixty years ago.

It was written in a beautiful feminine handwriting on powder blue stationery with a little flower in the left-hand corner. It was a "Dear John" letter that told the recipient, whose name appeared to be Michael, that the writer could not see him any more because her mother forbade it. Even so, she wrote that she would always love him. It was signed, Hannah.

It was a beautiful letter, but there was no way except for the name Michael, that the owner could be identified. Maybe if I called information, the operator could find a phone listing for the address on the envelope.

"Operator," I began, "this is an unusual request. I'm trying to find the owner of a wallet that I found. Is there anyway you can tell me if there is a phone number for an address that was on an envelope in the wallet?"
She suggested I speak with her supervisor, who hesitated for a moment then said, "Well, there is a phone listing at that address, but I can't give you the number." She said, as a courtesy, she would call that number, explain my story and would ask them if they wanted her to connect me. I waited a few minutes and then she was back on the line. "I have a party who will speak with you."

I asked the woman on the other end of the line if she knew anyone by the name of Hannah. She gasped, "Oh! We bought this house from a family who had a daughter named Hannah. But that was 30 years ago!"
"Would you know where that family could be located now?" I asked.
"I remember that Hannah had to place her mother in a nursing home some years ago," the woman said. "Maybe if you got in touch with them they might be able to track down the daughter."
She gave me the name of the nursing home and I called the number. They told me the old lady had passed away some years ago but they did have a phone number for where they thought the daughter might be living. I thanked them and phoned. The woman who answered explained that Hannah herself was now living in a nursing home.

This whole thing was stupid, I thought to myself. Why was I making such a big deal over finding the owner of a wallet that had only three dollars and a letter that was almost 60 years old?

Nevertheless, I called the nursing home in which Hannah was supposed to be living and the man who answered the phone told me, "Yes, Hannah is staying with us. "

Even though it was already 10 p.m., I asked if I could come by to see her. "Well," he said hesitatingly, "if you want to take a chance, she might be in the day room watching television."

I thanked him and drove over to the nursing home. The night nurse and a guard greeted me at the door. We went up to the third floor of the large building. In the day room, the nurse introduced me to Hannah.

She was a sweet, silver-haired old timer with a warm smile and a twinkle in her eye. I told her about finding the wallet and showed her the letter. The second she saw the powder blue envelope with that little flower on the left, she took a deep breath and said, "Young man, this letter was the last contact I ever had with Michael."

looked away for a moment deep in thought and then said Softly, "I loved him very much. But I was only 16 at the time and my mother felt I was too young. Oh, he was so handsome. He looked like Sean Connery, the actor."

"Yes," she continued. "Michael Goldstein was a wonderful person. If you should find him, tell him I think of him often. And," she hesitated for a moment, almost biting her lip, "tell him I still love him. You know," she said smiling as tears began to well up in her eyes, "I never did marry. I guess no one ever matched up to Michael..."

I thanked Hannah and said goodbye. I took the elevator to the first floor and as I stood by the door, the guard there asked, "Was the old lady able to help you?"
I told him she had given me a lead. "At least I have a last name. But I think I'll let it go for a while. I spent almost the whole day trying to find the owner of this wallet."

I had taken out the wallet, which was a simple brown leather case with red lacing on the side. When the guard saw it, he said, "Hey, wait a minute! That's Mr. Goldstein's wallet. I'd know it anywhere with that bright red lacing. He's always losing that wallet. I must have found it in the halls at least three times.""Who's Mr. Goldstein?" I asked as my hand began to shake.

"He's one of the old timers on the 8th floor. That's Mike Goldstein's wallet for sure. He must have lost it on one of his walks." I thanked the guard and quickly ran back to the nurse's office. I told her what the guard had said. We went back to the elevator and got on. I prayed that Mr. Goldstein would be up.

On the eighth floor, the floor nurse said, "I think he's still in the day room. He likes to read at night. He's a darling old man."

We went to the only room that had any lights on and there was a man reading a book. The nurse went over to him and asked if he had lost his wallet. Mr. Goldstein looked up with surprise, put his hand in his back pocket and said, "Oh, it is missing!"

"This kind gentleman found a wallet and we wondered if it could be yours?"I handed Mr. Goldstein the wallet and the second he saw it, he smiled with relief and said, "Yes, that's it! It must have dropped out of my pocket this afternoon. I want to give you a reward."
"No, thank you," I said. "But I have to tell you something. I read the letter in the hope of finding out who owned the wallet."

The smile on his face suddenly disappeared. "You read that letter?"
"Not only did I read it, I think I know where Hannah is."
He suddenly grew pale. "Hannah? You know where she is? How is she? Is she still as pretty as she was? Please, please tell me," he begged.
"She's fine...just as pretty as when you knew her." I said softly.
The old man smiled with anticipation and asked, "Could you tell me where she is? I want to call her tomorrow." He grabbed my hand and said, "You know something, mister, I was so in love with that girl that when that letter came, my life literally ended. I never married. I guess I've always loved her."
"Mr. Goldstein," I said, "Come with me."

We took the elevator down to the third floor. The hallways were darkened and only one or two little night-lights lit our way to the day room where Hannah was sitting alone watching the television. The nurse walked over to her.

"Hannah," she said softly, pointing to Michael, who was waiting with me in the doorway. "Do you know this man?"

She adjusted her glasses, looked for a moment, but didn't say a word.
Michael said softly, almost in a whisper, "Hannah, it's Michael. Do you remember me?"
She gasped, "Michael! I don't believe it! Michael! It's you! My Michael!"
He walked slowly towards her and they embraced. The nurse and I left with tears streaming down our faces."See," I said. "

See how the Good Lord works! If it's meant to be, it will be."

About three weeks later I got a call at my office from the nursing home. "Can you break away on Sunday to attend a wedding? Michael and Hannah are going to tie the knot!"

It was a beautiful wedding with all the people at the nursing home dressed up to join in the celebration. Hannah wore a light beige dress and looked beautiful. Michael wore a dark blue suit and stood tall.
They made me their best man. The hospital gave them their own room and if you ever wanted to see a 76-year-old bride and a 79-year-old groom acting like two teenagers, you had to see this couple.

A perfect ending for a love affair that had lasted nearly 60 years.

朋友

写完上一个贴,忽然间发现,怎么现在自己重要的朋友都是全男班了?

忽然很想念你们啊!!!

诗莹
佩君 (our infamous PK at college time)

唉,怎么都跑到国外去了?大家很久都没有聚聚了。
真得很想念以前一起疯狂的日子!!!

期待着下一次见面吧。。。。。。

重贴

"忽然间。。。 发现自己很久没有写部落格了, “自己写” 的定义是: 不是从某某处抄回来的故事或者文章咯。。。 原来。。。 自己只有在心情低落时, 脑子释放负能量时, 才会写部落格。。。 那。。。 很久没写。。。 是好事? 还是坏事呢? 是自己很久没有不开心了? 还是已经麻木了?"

那到底是好事呢?还是坏事?
可是我发现自己真得很迟钝!!!到现在我才懂得,原来幸福可以是很简单的。
亲人或朋友的一句小小的问候,就可以给我无限的力量继续往前冲。

《谢谢》

哥,谢谢你!
只要你在,我知道自己还有一个哥哥,心里就总觉得踏实很多。

Alex,谢谢你!
你总是在我累的时候当我的避风港,让我可以静静地沉淀自己。

富和,谢谢你!
总是在听我发牢骚,然后就不着痕迹地开解我。

七仔,谢谢你!
经过了这么多,你还把我当作朋友;虽然只是普通朋友,可是我心里真的觉得很欣慰了。

达子,谢谢你!
一切总在不言中。

**************

忘记得不到的,忘记失去了的;原来幸福就真的是这么简单!

原来把握现在拥有的,就已经是一件很幸福的事了!

Monday, 5 October 2009

老师?妓女?好老师!

卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学… 别笑,看过你就不会笑了…
Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school... Don't laugh, after you read, u won't laugh.

看完这个帖子,无语了。我不知道该说什么,是社会错了,还是怎么了?
After I read this story, I speakless. I don't know what to say, is it society's fault, or else?

殷彩霞死了,死前她是一名妓女,更确切的说,她是一名老师。是当今中国当之无愧的老师。她用自己肮脏的身体,纯洁了孩子的心灵。
Xia die, she was a hooker, or she was a teacher.. She is the most honourable teacher in China . She use her dirty body, wash thru children's heart.

一个妓女死了,所有的孩子哭着参加了她的追悼会,学校的国旗为她降了一半!
A hooker's death, all children cried and attend her funeral, a school drop the national flag for her.

这名年仅21岁的美女教师的追悼会上,校长翻开殷彩霞的日记,当着孩子们的面老泪纵横地朗读起来,她这样写道:卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学…
In the funeral of this 21yo pretty teacher, headmaster read Xia's diary sadly in front of all the students, she written : 'Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school.'....

殷彩霞出生在甘肃省某县的农村,在那个贫困的地方,村里的其他姑娘,无论美丑,早就到南方沿海城市去打工挣钱了,每到春节,她们都会打扮得花枝招展,大包小包的提回来。而殷彩霞高中毕业后没这么做,很多人都不理解,毕竟她的长相在村里是数一数二的。为此,她的父亲经常骂自己的女儿没出息。
Xia lived in a small village of province of Gan Shu . All ladies in this small village, no matter she is pretty or not, went to Southern part of city to earn money. Every spring time, they will come back with money and beautiful cloths. Xia didn't follow after she finished her secondary school. A lot of people don't understand what is she thinking of as she has the pretty face and body. And because of this, her father always scold her.

听说当地一所民办小学缺老师,她主动跟学校要求免费代课。因为她中学成绩就很好,顺利的通过了学校的文化考核,成为一名真正的民办教师。
When she heard of the only primary school in the village needs some teachers, she volunteerly ask to become a free teacher. She is a very good student in her secondary school and because of this, she easily pass thru all the test and became the teacher of the school.

当殷彩霞第一次走进课堂的时候,孩子门哗然了,他们从未见过如此漂亮的女老师。从此,教室里常常洋溢着孩子们的欢声笑语。说是教室,其实也就一遮风挡雨的茅草棚,树杆埋成的墙,石板搭起的课桌,砖头码起的讲台,最值钱的就是那块用青砖砌起之后经打磨又刷了黑漆的黑板了,粉笔不够用,常以石灰与泥巴代替。就是在这样条件下,殷彩霞教会孩子们认识了几千个汉字,也教会了他们很多做人的道理。
The 1st time when Xia walk into the classroom, all children shock to see a pretty teacher. From then on, the classroom always fill with children's laughter. Classroom -- should call it a hut instead as the wall is made of sticks and cover with leaves as its ceiling. A big stone become their table and the most expensive should be the polished dark-green stone as their blackboard. With this condition, Xia taught thousands of Chinese words and knowledge to her students.

一天夜里刮大风,茅草棚盖的学校屋顶被掀翻,黑板也被刮倒。第2天孩子们上学的时候各个不知道所措。校长去找县教育局长要钱结果无功而返。老校长晚上回来对殷彩霞说,局长说要你去才给。从来没有出过远门、也没有见过世面的殷彩霞怕把事情搞杂了,胆怯的步行10几公里去了县里。局长的办公室装修很豪华,墙上挂着很多锦旗,办公桌黑里透红,可以照见人影,上面立着一面小国旗,椅子是皮的,好象擦了鞋油一样光亮,比他的脑袋还要亮。局长见到殷彩霞,色咪咪聊了很多不着边际的话。直到天黑了,校长指着另外一扇门对她说,跟我过来拿钱。当殷彩霞走进去的时候,她只看到了一张床,也就是在那张床上,她失去了她的第一次,确切地说,是局长夺走了她的第一次。
There was wild rain destroy the classroom of the school and all students become schoolless.. The headmaster visit the province's education minister for some money to repair the classroom and come back with nothing. Headmaster told Xia that the minister said only will give money if Xia ask for it. Xia never meet any minister before and afraid that she will make the things worst and decided to visit the minister. She walked more than 10km to the province ministry office and sit in a beautiful office in front of the minister. Minister's eyes looks hungry and point to a room and said to Xia. Your money is in the room, if you want, follow me. Xia saw a big bed in the room and is the bed that she lost her virgin. Minister raped her..

床单上留下了处子的血,那血,比挂在局长办公室墙上的国旗还要红。
Her virgin blood drop on the bedsheet and is more reddish than the color of the national flag in the room.

殷彩霞没有哭,因为,在眼前浮现的是孩子们没有教室上课而可怜的望着她的眼神!
Xia didn't cry, all she is thinking of is the eyes of all disappointed students that have no classroom.

她连夜步行回到家里,没有跟任何人说起她的屈辱。
She didn't tell anyone about the rape after she went home.

第二天,村民们自发来到学校,买了些材料把简陋的教室重新搭建起来了。可遇到刮风下雨的日子,依然上不了课。殷彩霞几次跟孩子们说,县里不久将会来人给他们买砖头盖一所牢固的教室,在这半年里,校长去县城找了局长十几趟,一分钱没拿到。只有他知道局长对殷彩霞做了些什么,但他却无能为力。新学期开始了,很少人交得起学费,能够坚持来校上课的孩子越来越少了,他们都跟着父母放羊去了。殷彩霞内心感到了疼痛,为这些失学儿童而疼痛。
The next day, with the money that brought back by Xia, all villagers bought some woods and repair the classroom. But whenever there was a heavy rain, the classroom still cannot be used. Xia always tell the students that province ministry department will built a good school for them. In the past half year, headmaster had visited the ministers more than 100 times and never ever get any money from them. He is the only 1 knows what did Xia did and he can do nothing about it. New semester comes, a lot of students cannot pay their fees and become schoolless and follow their parents to work. Xia sad about that.

当殷彩霞知道孩子们的希望已经化为泡影的时候,她脱光了自己的衣服,对着镜子暗暗发誓将用自己的身体去实现孩子们的上学梦。在家乡她知道那些花枝招展回来过年的姐妹们都是在外做批肉生意的。她明白那是一条赚钱的捷径。她洗了个澡,告别了校长、告别的父亲,告别了那间千疮百孔的茅草棚,扎着两条麻花辫走向了繁华的大都市。临走的时候,父亲笑了,校长哭了......
When Xia feel that her hope of all students can go to school become hopeless, she drop all her cloths and swear to her naked body that she will use this body to exchange for the children to be able to go to school. She knows that all ladies in the village are working as a prostitute to earn the living and she knows this is a shortcut for her to earn money. She washed herself and say goodbye to headmaster, father, and school. She tight her hair as 2 ponytails and walk to the city. When she leave, her father smile and headmaster cry....

繁华都市的五颜六色并没有给殷彩霞带来一丝兴奋,她眼里始终浮现的是那间低矮茅草棚搭建的教室和孩子们渴望的目光。她走进了一家发廊,躺在了肮脏的床上,经受了人生的第二次蹂躏。那天,她在日记本上写着:局长连个嫖客都不如。 殷彩霞是那帮姐妹里最节俭的女孩。她从来不化妆,也从来不穿那些性感的衣服,她总爱扎着麻花辫,但她的生意却总是最好的,她总是抢了其他妓女的饭碗,她也经常为此遭到妓女们的群殴。鼻青脸肿之后,她会走向另一家发廊,似乎只有在那粉色的灯光下她才可以看到希望。看着嫖客们一张张邪恶的嘴脸,她似乎看到了孩子们天真的笑容,但她从来就不曾因此而流泪,因为,她是个老师。
In the colorful city, Xia is not happy at all, in her mind, there are only broken classroom and sadness and disappointed eyes of students. She walked into a Hair-Saloon, lay down on a dirty bed, and accept her 2nd dirty business. In that night, in her diary, she wrote : 'Minister can't even compare to her 1st customer. At least they pay.'

她将自己的收入除去生活费之后,全部寄给了校长。校长按照殷彩霞的意思将她寄回的一笔笔嫖资全都用于改善小学的教学条件上。有人问起那笔钱的来源,校长就说那是社会捐助的善款。
She sends all her earnings except those for her to live on to headmaster. Headmaster follows her instruction to use the money on the school. People ask about the source of the money and headmaster only answer that it was from some donation of society.

世上没有不透风的墙,有一天终于从邮局传来消息说那些钱是殷老师寄来的。当地媒体得知这一消息后纷纷试图采访殷彩霞,但都被她婉言谢绝了,因为,她是个妓女。
After a while, people knows about the source of money is from the teacher and many reporters would like to interview her and she just refused and the reason is that she is just a prostituet.

有钱了,学校变了,第一个月,买了黑板,修了屋顶。第二个月,有了木制的课桌与板凳。第三个月,所有的孩子都有了课本。第四个月,所有的孩子都有了红领巾。第五个月,已经没有孩子光着脚丫上课了。
With the money, the school changed. First month, there is a new blackboard.. 2nd month, a wooden table and chair. 3rd month, all children has their own books. 4th month, all children has a red tie. 5th month, no children go to school bare leg.

第六个月,殷彩霞回来了。当孩子们看到她的时候,争先恐后地叫她'殷老师……殷老师回来了……殷老师好漂亮啊……'。看到孩子们激动的笑脸,殷彩霞哭了,这半年里,多少的委屈和泪水,在她眼里都那么的有价值。
On the 6th month, Xia come back. All students welcome her happily and say 'Teacher is so beautiful'... With all student's smiling face, Xia cries.. how many tear drops and how many sadness in the past 6 months... she feels worthy when she see all these.

在家呆了几天,殷老师又踏上了南下的路。
After few days at home, she goes back to city.

第七个月,有了操场。 第八个月,有了篮球。第九个月,有了新铅笔。 第十个月,学校有了自己的国旗,孩子们每天都能够在操场上看到国旗冉冉升起 在第十一个月,一个房地产商坚持不用套,结果让殷老师意外怀孕了,打完胎后,殷老师成了房地产商的二奶。可那位包养她半年的房产商因为因近段时间深圳房价陡降而抛弃了她,一分钱没付。
7th month, built a ball park, 8th month, basketball, 9th month, all students has their new pencils. 10th month, the school has their own national flag, students raise the national flags daily. 11th month, a land-developer refuse to use condom and Xia pregnant. After abortion, she become the developer's mistress. After a few months, the developers dump her because he faced problem on land-value drop in ShengXhen, he didn't pay her 1 cent.

殷彩霞终于疲倦了,她想回家,她想回到孩子们的身边,可她最大的梦想是为孩子们盖上一间砖砌的教室,再为孩子们买上两台电脑,因为这个梦想还没实现,所以她只能回头去苦苦哀求那位房产商。房产商说没钱,但可以为她介绍一笔大生意,一老外,愿意出三千美元买她一夜。想到几年前的那阵大风,殷彩霞拖着疲惫的身躯爬上了老外的床。她发誓,过了那个晚上她就回到她久别的家乡,回到她久别的课堂。
Xia feel tired, she think of go home and go back to the school, but she has yet to fulfill student's dream which are building a concrete classroom and 2 PCs for the students. Because of these, she went back to beg the developer and the developer just refuse to pay anything but only introduce a foreigner to her. Said the foreigner will pay her 3000rmb for 1 night. Think of the wild rain happen few days ago, she tiredly goes to the foreigner's hotel. She sweared that she will go back to her home and school after this.

可就在那个晚上,殷老师被三个外国人强奸致死。死前她才刚过完自己21岁的生日。
She killed by the 3 foreigner because of raping. She just turned 21yo.

殷老师死了,她没能完成她最后的夙愿,那就是给孩子们盖上一间砖砌的教室,再为孩子们买上两台电脑……
Xia died without fulfill her final wish which to build a concrete classroom and 2 PCs.

一个妓女死了,悄无声息。深圳的天空还是那么蓝,官员们在豪华宴席上高谈阔论,道路上行驶的高级轿车散发着耀眼的光芒。兴奋的人们滔滔不绝地谈论着股票、房价和车市,还有电影、音乐和爱情。路边亲亲我我恋爱的小青年们为了一点小事要死要活。
A hooker dies, silently, the sky of ShengZhen is still as blue as before, ministers still happily sitting in their office, many expensive cars still running on street, people happily discussing share market, house market value, car value, and movies, music and love story. Youngster try to suicide because of small matters happen between themselves.

可在此时,甘肃那个人们已经忘记了的小山村,正在举行只有学生、老师和数百位沉痛的村民的追悼会。
At this time, students, teachers and few hundreds of villagers attending the funeral in this small village 'GanShu'

追悼会上,人们看到殷彩霞的一张黑白照片,照片里,她扎着两个麻花辫,笑得如此单纯。校长翻开殷彩霞的日记,当着孩子们的面老泪纵横地朗读起来,她这样写道:卖一次淫,可以帮助一名失学儿童;当一回二奶,可以拯救一所希望小学… 校的国旗降了一半。
In the funeral, people see a black and white photo of Xia. In the photo, she has 2 pony tails and happily smile. Headmaster open the diary of Xia and read in front of all students, she wrote : ' Each prostitution, can help one schooless child; become a mistress once, can rescue a hopeless primary school...' The national flag drop to its half... May be, this is the ONLY national flag drop half because of a GREAT hooker in China 's history.

Wednesday, 23 September 2009

米商.花猫.老鼠

一个卖米的商人,他的粮仓里常常有老鼠来偷吃他的米粮,令他非常苦恼。

于是,他买了一只花猫,把它养在粮仓,并保证只要它能捉到老鼠,就会给它奖赏。

第二天,花猫捉到了一只小老鼠,把它交给主人。

主人把吃剩的鱼骨头丢给花猫,说“大老鼠吃了我较多的米粮,小老鼠吃得较少,捉十只小老鼠也比不上一只大老鼠的贡献。所以你的功劳小,只能吃鱼骨头。”

第三天,又有一只小老鼠来偷米粮。

花猫心想:“捉了它也不能领功,只能吃别人剩下的鱼骨头,不如把他养在粮仓里,等它肥大时才把它交给主人。”

于是,花猫便任由老鼠在粮仓里偷吃米粮。

过了一段时间,这只老鼠吃得又肥又大,花猫便把它捉去见主人,说:“这只大老鼠吃了你大量的米粮啊!我费了好大的力气才捉到它。”

主人见老鼠的体型像花猫那么大,非常高兴,立刻奖赏了花猫两条大鲤鱼,并鼓励它说:“你的功劳真大!希望你以后捉更多这样大的老鼠。”

从此以后,花猫继续在粮仓里养老鼠。

大老鼠一只又一只地交给主人,米粮却一天比一天少,主人却始终不明白其中的原因。

有时候我们容易被表面的东西所欺骗,以致没有意识到自己的错误。

所以我们要把事情弄清楚,不要一味的听信别人所说的话。

老鼠总是越来越肥,花猫总是领奖。

其实很多男孩子都不知道

其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。
其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气,因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨,也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,她根本不会来在乎你关心你,怕你做错事情。
你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她,在别人面前她都是淑女。
你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,你根本就没有本事让她哭泣,让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你,而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是,你们时常争吵,你认为她脾气不好,她认为你不够迁就她。
于是,你们总是冷战,你以为她不喜欢你,她以为你不在乎她。
于是,你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过,也许擦身而过,本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道,凄美依然是美的一种,并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑,那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你,所以她偶尔冲你发火,时常对你撒娇。
因为她喜欢你,所以她才会生你的气;而又因为喜欢你,她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道,每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的,晶莹剔透,但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。
你可知道,每个女孩子都是不设防的,你那么轻易就闯进她的心,走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道,这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人,因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持,她会很骄傲,她会很冷淡,她总是嘴里说着你走开,心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗? 请你张开你的耳朵,也请你打开你的心,去听她心里真正的呼唤,而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身,然后她跟着你转身,当侧身而过的时候,你看不见她的泪,滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她,请你多陪她;如果你喜欢她,请你多宠她;如果你喜欢她,请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她,请你去听听她内心的声音,那是呐喊 --- 请拥抱她。

在爱情里,总是彼此伤害,彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是,爱情里没有孰对孰错;爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她,她爱你,如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害,让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱,你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐,不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战,不要互不相让,更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道,你离去的时候,你的眼睛起了雾,她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深,这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合,那些伤口曾经存在,抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱,用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你,她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱,她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。

请记住,相爱的人不要轻易宣战,因为冷战带来的伤害,超出你的预计。
也请记住,只要你喜欢她,没有什么是你接受不了的,只要你喜欢她,就喜欢她的一切一切。
那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病,在你眼里都是撒娇。
也请记住,她喜欢你,她需要的不是你真的转身,她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。
她只是想你宠她,想你抱她,哪怕,没有道谦

如果你的薪水是別人給你的,你就是可以被取代的

原則1:
工作真的只是一份工作
不要期待工作與生活能兼顧,事實上也沒幾個人能將工作與生活成功的整合起來,工作並不是生活,我們工作是為了要過生活,或保有自己所喜歡的生活。想想看,你一天或一個禮拜能有多少時間和家人相處,或和親朋好友去做一些你喜歡做的事,就可以知道要兼顧工作與生活是不可能的。工作只是工作,目的是為了賺錢。 想起 詹 老師說過的,錢只是一個工具,讓您換得食物、衣服、車子、房子、休閒育樂…換得「成就」…而「成就感」必須從個人所做的學習與事物中得到價值和肯定..

原則2:
不要害怕換工作
工作既是為了賺錢,只要可能賺更多錢,或做起來更愉快、更有滿足感,何妨就換工作?而且,以這樣的原則換工作,收入當然會越換越多,跳槽可能也會變得稀鬆平常。只要每次工作時都全力以赴,有稱職的表現,對雇主和業界都能交代,應該隨時可以找到下一個工作機會。但站在生涯規劃的觀點,要思考的不只是下一份工作,而是下下一份工作在哪裡。尤其如果已經三十歲以上,更應該將目標放在提早規劃四十歲以後的人生,就會知道自己該做好什麼準備。

原則3:
一鳥在手勝過十鳥在林
很多公司都聲稱他們有優渥的福利制度,包括退休金計劃。可是不斷有事實告訴我們,越來越多的人在屆滿退休之前就失去工作了。所以爭取眼前的福利可能更實際,比較值得期待,例如包括健康醫療保障在內的團體保險、托嬰照顧、親職休假、績效獎金的分發,增加加班費或年終獎金等等。 更值得思考的是 --- 這份工作你能做多少,或是說 --- 老闆會讓你做多久?然後呢?

原則4:
謀生本事不厭其多
新世紀的工作與收入可能會變得不穩定,產業的興衰或輪替也會變得快速無比,在同一家企業內辛苦一輩子可能會以失業收場。所以橫向拓展各方面的技能,會比縱向的在企業的組織內向上攀爬追求位高權重還要實際。其實現在已有不少企業也『學會』了一些聰明的技巧,對授予好聽的高階職位並不吝惜,可以讓你擁有耀眼的頭銜,但對薪資增加並沒有多大幫助。與其追求這種虛名,不如讓自己能具備十八般武藝可以多方面賺錢,隨時跳槽。充實自己的技能讓自己無可替代,或者在風險控管下,掌握機會自己創業,才是M型社會生存王道!

原則5:
做好份內工作就回家去
再提醒你,工作只是工作,公司少了你一個人的工作,照樣可以運轉下去。踏實的學習你的工作所該具備的技能,努力做好你的工作,但不要奢望你可以憑一己之力多為公司創造多少業績或產能。不要因此耗掉你大量的私人時間,讓自己從盲目工作中抽離出來。記住,做好自己份內的工作,然後回家去。說真的,在老闆的眼中,你真的沒有那麼重要!面對現實吧!

原則6:
遠離辦公室政治
你工作的目的是為賺取合理的收入,而不是追求虛名與權位,所以不用在心思在辦公室政治上。當紅炸子雞可能因改朝換代而去職走路,被冰凍的失志衰老也可能鹹魚翻身。與其耗費時間介入這些無意義的辦公室鬥爭,不如多花時間在自己的家庭。好好為自己的人生規劃準備才是最重要的。

Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Album of the Month


After 6 years of waiting,


She - Whitney Houston is back!!!!!!


Brand new album ~ I Look to You ~


給孩子的備忘錄

我兒:

寫這備忘錄給你,基於三個原則:

(一)人生福禍無常,誰也不知可以活多久,有些事情還是早一點說好。

(二)我是你的父親,我不跟你說,沒有人會跟你說。

(三)這備忘錄里記載的,都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗,可以為你的成長省回不 少冤枉路。以下,便是你在人生中要好好記住的事:

(一) 對你不好的人,你不要太介懷,在你一生中,沒有人有義務要對你好,除了我和你媽媽。至於那些對你好的人,你除了要珍惜、感恩外,也請多防備一點,因為,每個人做每件事,總有一個原因,他對你好,未必真的是因為喜歡你,請你必須搞清楚,而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。

(二) 沒有人是不可代替,沒有東西是必須擁有。看透了這一點,將來你身邊的人不再要你,或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時,也應該明白,這並不是甚麼大不了的事。

(三) 生命是短暫的,今日你還在浪費著生命,明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。因此,愈早珍惜生命,你享受生命的日子也愈多,與其盼望長壽,倒不如早點享受。

(四) 世界上並沒有最愛這回事,愛情只是一種霎時的感覺,而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。如果你的所謂最愛離開你,請耐心地等候一下,讓時日慢慢沖洗,讓心靈慢慢沉澱,你的苦就會慢慢淡化。 不要過分憧憬愛情的美,不要過分誇大失戀的悲。

(五) 雖然,很多有成就的人士都有受過很多教育,但並不等如不用功讀書,就一定可以成功。你學到的知識,就是你擁有的武器。人,可以白手興家,但不可以手無寸鐵,緊記!

(六) 我不會要求你供養我下半輩子,同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子,當你長大到可以獨立的時候,我的責任已經完結。以後,你要坐巴士還是Benz,吃魚翅還是粉絲,都要自己負責。

(七) 你可以要求自己守信,但不能要求別人守信,你可以要求自己對人好,但不能期待人家對你好。你怎樣對人,並不代表人家就會怎樣對你,如果看不透這一點,你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。

(八) 我買了十多二十年六合彩,還是一窮二白,連三獎也沒有中,這證明人要發達,還是要努力工作才可以,世界上並沒有免費午餐。

(九) 親人只有一次的緣份,無論這輩子我和你會相處多久,也請好好珍惜共聚的時光,下輩子,無論愛與不愛,都不會再見。

你的爸爸

JokesSSSs

1. A judge asked a woman on why she wanted a divorce. She answered, 'Your Honor, he knew I'm a vegetarian n yet he still insists on putting his meat in my mouth.'

2. Woman: 'Doc, an ant entered my vagina, can you please take it out'. Doctor removes her panties and start making love. Woman: 'What are you doing?' Doctor: 'This is the only way to drown the bastard!'

3. Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period? Answer: Your SALARY. It comes once a month last 3 - 4 days & if it doesn't come you are in deep trouble!

4. A lady visited her doctor again, Dr. said: U look more sick & exhausted then b 4. Are u having 3 meals a day as I advised? Lady: WHAT? I thought U said 3 MALES a day!!!!

5. Women asked God to make The Penis Pretty. GOD Said 'No way; Now As It Is, The Penis is so ugly & U still Su ck It. If I make it Pretty You'll Eat It up!!

6. A nun went 4 a urine test. The sample got mixed up. When the doctor told her she was pregnant, she cried n said,'Shit, we can't even trust cucumber anymore.!'

7. A boy pulls down his pants in front of a girl & asked ' Do U have this? ' The girl lifted up her skirt & said, ' My mom said with this I can have a lot of THAT!'

8. Schoolgirl: 'I do not want to take the SEX EDUCATION'. Class Teacher: ' Why not?' Schoolgirl: 'Someone told me the FINAL EXAM would be ORAL!'

9. Mother asks daughter, how is married life? Daughter shyly says like BRITISH AIRWAYS. Mother reads the ad & is shocked ' 7 DAYS A WEEK,TWICE A DAY, BOTH WAYS!

10. What is the STRONGEST muscle? TONGUE - It can raise a woman's hip with just one lick!. The lightest muscle? PENIS! It can be raised by a woman's tongue!

11. Lady Immigration officer asked a Korean tourist: Name? Park Yu. The 0fficer become angry & shouted back: FUCK YOU! Now what's your full name? Korean replied: PARK YU TOO!!

12. Man to wife: Business is bad, if u learn 2 cook we can remove servant. Wife: ASSHOLE! If u learn how to fuck, we can remove driver, gardener & watchman..

13. COCK say to his two BALLS: I am going to take you with me to a party. BALLS said: You big fucking liar. You always get INSIDE and leave us waiting OUTSIDE!

14. A baby dog asked mama dog how papa look like? Mama dog reply: How I know. Your papa came from behind & I didn't have chance to see his face' !

15. What's the difference between stress, tension & panic? Stress is when wife is pregnant, tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, PANIC is when both are pregnant!

遺產

中年喪偶是件難以忍受的痛,辦完喪事後大半年了,我都沒有辦法從悲慟中平復,儘管親朋好友催促我趕快看看他的遺囑,早日料理好他的遺產,我始終不肯去打開那個保險箱,保險箱裡不只是他的最後心願,也有我們共同珍藏的心愛寶物,我們的結婚證書,我們的定情之物,婚後每個結婚紀念日都買一個兩人都看中意的戒指,那些,讓我會更加睹物生情,不捨他的體貼、溫柔、幽默、豁達,任我自己沉浸在悲傷中,整天以淚洗面,不肯出門。    

婆婆看不過去,要我振作起來,她說國稅局來催過很多次,要把財產做個什麼結案的,我只好會同律師一起打開保險箱,除了交代的非常仔細的遺囑之外,他還留了一個署名愛妻親啟的卡片,我好奇的展開來讀:原來,他留給我一個網路笑話:

「一個寡婦向朋友哭訴,老公去世之後什麼也沒留給她,只留給她兩億三千萬!友人充滿疑惑又非常羨慕的問她:你老公這麼好,妳該很滿足,日子也該很好過啊!喔!不!寡婦回答,我先生給我的兩億是:回憶和失意。他的三千萬則是 一、千萬要照顧好小孩,二、千萬得孝順公婆,三、千萬別改嫁。」

笑話後面,他繼續寫著:我比較窮,我只能給你一億一千萬,一億當然是我們美好的回憶,一千萬則是千萬要忘記傷痛,快樂起來,妳會怪我給的太少,而不肯要這份遺產嗎?

看了卡片,我在他死後第一次破涕為笑,卻忍不住勾出他更多的好,我在婆婆面前哭哭笑笑,終於擦乾了眼淚,牽起婆婆的手,告訴她,我已經準備好今後一定要振作起來,好好花他這筆遺產,一億一千萬,我怎麼會嫌少呢?

專一

【0 - 5 歲的時候】
女→媽媽。
男→媽媽。

【6 - 10 歲的時候】
女→不是討厭的男孩子就可以了!
男→可以陪我欺負女孩子的男孩。

【11 - 15 歲的時候】
女→十五六七八歲的大哥哥,千萬不要同年紀那班野蠻人!
男→足球,籃球,網球,乒乓球......

【16 - 20 歲的時候】
女→我要十七八歲差不多年紀大家都說讚的「大帥哥」!
男→女人,女人就可以了!

【21 - 25 歲的時候】
女→25-29歲的成熟男人,要有事業基礎,有品味,才華......
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人。

【26 - 30 歲的時候】
女→仍是堅持要比自己年紀大的男人。
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人。

【30 - 40 歲的時候】
女→心靈契合的好男人。
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人

【40 - 50 歲的時候】
女→男人。
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人

【50 - 60 歲的時候】
女→可與他終老的男人。
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人。

【60 - 80 歲的時候】
女→五六十歲時找到的那個男人,最好不需要自己照顧的。
男→20-24歲漂亮又有身材的女人。

【80 - 90 歲的時候】
女→比自己遲死的男人。
男→雖然我已經老花眼,看不清楚......但是我還是希望是20-24歲......

總結:男人打從20歲後....對女人的需求就十分專一。
所以男人比較專一

女孩, 你会哭吗? 男孩, 你会这样做吗?

女孩给男孩发了条短消息:
如果家里穷困潦倒到只有一碗稀饭面对着我们两人,你会把稀饭里的米给我吃吗?

男孩回消息:
这还用说吗?但是我认为一个真正爱那个女孩的男孩,就不应该让自己心爱的女人过如此生活。

女孩回消息:
可有一个人的回答是这样!

他说,不!我会把整碗的米连同稀粥都给她喝。

这短短的对话会不会感动所有女人我不知道,可我却被深深打动。

男孩回消息:那么连这一碗稀粥也没有,那个男人会怎么做呢?!或者有没有想到那一碗稀饭女孩吃了是不是还肚子饿呢?!

女孩认为,男孩应该像那个男孩那样回答:不!我会把米和稀粥都给你喝!才是真正完美,标准,唯一的答案。

因为男孩没有按女孩的意思回答好这个问题,女孩和男孩背对背睡了一夜,男孩几次想拥她入睡都被女孩拒绝。

上天有时总是有些不尽人意。

后来女孩和男孩走到一起的时候,由于种种原因,他们真的遇上了类似于只有一碗稀饭喝的日子。

那天,男孩悄悄地给女孩留个言:亲爱的,我吃过了,桌上给你留了碗稀饭,你把它喝完。

女孩喝完那晚稀饭,小憩一会的时候。

男孩从外面回来,给女孩带回来她喜欢吃的羊肉串,水果,奶茶。

男孩对女孩说,他找了份临时工作,刚挣的钱,老板答应先付一部分工资。
说完还拿出口袋的钱在女孩面前晃了晃。

“亲爱的慢慢吃!我已经在外面吃过了。”说完还做了个调皮的鬼脸。

在最困难的那段日子,女孩依旧快乐的幸福着,男孩倒好像由于工作劳累,身体有些不适。

后来,男孩有了工作,女孩和男孩对他们未来的幸福充满美丽的憧憬。

女孩喜欢看电视,看到电视中报道多年前在一场大地震中,一位母亲和孩子被压在废墟下,母亲的奶水被孩子吃尽时,母亲咬开了自己手上的血管,用自己的鲜血喂孩子,数天后,人们终于扒开废墟下的母子,母亲已经血流殆尽离开了人世,嘴角的粘着母亲鲜血的孩子带着天真的笑容,红嘟嘟的鲜艳小脸蛋获得了新生。

女孩问男孩,如果我们俩被压在废墟下,你会像那位母亲样用你的血液使我活下来吗?

男孩对女孩的言语间竟有些激动。
他对女孩说不要老是有这样那样的怪念头好吗?你是我的女人,我会尽我所能的让我的女人幸福,在任何你的生命和安全受到威胁的时候,我会不顾一切的保护好你。你是我的最爱,我也不允许你把种种不好的推测用到你的身上,亲爱的。

周末,一个阳光明媚的上午,男孩挽着女孩的手,兴冲冲地逛了一个上午,买了好多女孩喜欢吃的零食和她喜欢的衣服。

走在回家的路上。

两个幸福的小人儿,再穿过一个路口,就能到达他们共同构筑的爱的小巢——他们幸福的小天堂。

男孩一手挽着女孩,一手拎着买来的东西,男孩在前,女孩在后,两人走在斑马线上,就要穿过马路了,突然一辆右转弯车辆,直直地向离男孩一步之遥的后面的女孩疾速驶来,眨眼的功夫,汽车就要撞到女孩。

“砰!”的一声闷响后紧跟着汽车紧急刹车的声音。

一切来得那么突然,被撞者轻飘飘的飞向两米开外。路面上是一片刺眼的鲜血的红。

“不!不要!”由于惊吓刚刚回过神来的女孩,歇斯底里地凄惨叫声撞击着每个围观者的耳膜。

女孩明白,汽车本来是撞向她的,在常人来不及反应的一刹那间的零点几秒里,男孩却惊奇地把她推开了,自己倒在血泊里。

女孩哭喊着扑到男孩身边,男孩浑身是血,女孩大声地呼唤着男孩名字,围观者说没用了,已经试过男孩没有呼吸了。

女孩不相信,继续呼唤着男孩的名字,男孩竟然奇迹般的睁开了眼睛,看了女孩一眼,带着安详地微笑,永远闭上了眼睛。

女孩明白,男孩在生命的最尽头还在苦苦挣扎,拼尽最后一丝气力看到自己的亲爱的小女人安然无恙了,才放心地闭上眼睛。

那是个多雨的季节,到处充满了潮湿,雨水把天地连成雾蒙蒙一片。

两个人构筑的爱情小巢,现在只剩下女孩一个人,女孩浮想起以前两人在一起的点点滴滴。

女孩后悔那次不该因为男孩没有按自己的意思回答她问题,背对着他睡了一夜,后悔男孩几次欲拥她入睡,都被她拒绝。
她现在好想紧紧的拥着男孩,把那一夜的背对背补回来,可是再也无法也不可能补回来。

女孩习惯了逛马路时,身边有一个人紧紧的握住她的手,不用担心那些川流不息的汽车。男孩总是自己走在有汽车的一方让她走在远离汽车的另一边。
女孩好想再抓住那种安全感,可是怎么抓也抓不住。

女孩睡觉前,习惯了,有人给她唱着歌讲着故事入睡,现在再也没有人为她唱歌讲故事,她总是难以入睡。

女孩睡觉时,喜欢踹被子,男孩总是在每一次她踹掉被子时及时的醒来给她重新盖好。
现在那个人再也不能哪怕为她盖一次被子。

女孩喜欢吃零食,男孩每次从外面回到家里总能给她个小谗猫带来惊喜,安慰她的小肚肚,现在她的小肚肚多少天再也没有人安慰。

女孩喜欢吃瓜子,喜欢吃板栗,喜欢吃橘子,却不喜欢剥皮儿,女孩每次畅快淋漓的大吃特吃完瓜子,板栗,橘子后,男孩的面前总是堆起一堆果皮山,现在由于剥皮吃那些东西太费劲,她好久没敢碰那些想吃不能吃的好东西。

女孩现在有太多的不习惯,她只能学着慢慢的把不习惯变成习惯。

女孩整理遗物时发现了一个献血证,上面写着男孩的名字。
奇怪的是她从来不知道,男孩在一个月连续献了三次血,上面献血的日期更让她震惊,她清楚地记得,永远也忘不了那段他们最艰苦的日子。
她明白了那段日子男孩的身体为何那么虚弱,明白了男孩“预付的工资”的含义,明白了男孩是用偷偷献血的换来钱给她买来她喜欢吃的东西。

女孩继续整理遗物时,发现了一份报纸,意外地发现那场大地震时,那位伟大的母亲就是男孩的母亲,那个幸运获得生命的孩子就是男孩,而男孩又把这份幸运给了她。

女孩泪水涟涟。

Thursday, 27 August 2009

Friday, 21 August 2009

好事?还是坏事?

忽然间。。。
发现自己很久没有写部落格了,
“自己写” 的定义是:
不是从某某处抄回来的故事或者文章咯。。。

原来。。。
自己只有在心情低落时,
脑子释放负能量时,
才会写部落格。。。

那。。。
很久没写。。。
是好事?
还是坏事呢?

是自己很久没有不开心了?
还是已经麻木了?

Thursday, 20 August 2009

Did I Marry The Right Person?

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here....

Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship...

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.

You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU .

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades.It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship . Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"

And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.

This is when marriages breakdown . People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.

But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.

You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or a spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you.

You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.The right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, just as certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.

It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make"love .

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

"GOD determines who walks into ur life. It is up to u to decide who u let to walk away, who u let to stay, and who u refuse to let go."

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Commandments

Commandment 1
Marriages are made in heaven
But then again, so is thunder and lightning.

Commandment 2
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say,
Talk in your sleep.

Commandment 3
Marriage is grand - and divorce is at least a 100 grand!

Commandment 4
Married life is very frustrating.
In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens.
In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.
In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.

Commandment 5
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing:
Either the car is new or the wife is.

Commandment 6
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one;
The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

Commandment 7
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you said.
After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.

Commandment 8
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook.
But the law allows only one wife.

Commandment 9
Marriage and love are purely a matter of chemistry.
That is why one treats the other like toxic waste.

Commandment 10
A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished.

Bonus Commandment Story
A long married couple came upon a wishing well.
The wife leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny.
The husband decided to make a wish too.
But he leaned over too much, fell into the well, and drowned.
The wife was stunned for a moment,
But then smiled,
“It really works!”

Monday, 17 August 2009

幸福 !?

一天女孩过生日,男孩子在她生日的聚会上送了她一只可爱的毛毛熊,在各种生日礼物中,这根本算不上是礼物.

  女孩有些生气,也许更多的是愤怒,没想到自己男朋友这么小气,今天是她的生日,还来了这么多朋友.

  去年男孩在她生日的时候送了她一把很名贵的藏刀,男孩发誓说,如果有一天他背叛了女孩,女孩可以用刀划破他的胸膛.

  今年,两个人一直在讨论两个人的未来,这么多朋友都来为女孩庆祝生日,是男孩说在生日哪天会给女孩一个终生难忘的礼物.结果似乎一切都出乎大家的以外,当然主要是女孩!

  面对女孩愤怒的眼神,男孩只是坏坏的笑,这份礼物真的让女孩终生难忘.

  女孩在聚会中喝了很多酒,而男孩只是在旁边静静的喝着可乐.

  聚会结束,他们要回到自己的小家,上了三环,女生一直很愤怒,一直在埋怨,车的后排座放了很多名贵的礼物,当然还有那只毛毛熊.女生开始抱怨男孩不爱她,不珍惜他们的爱,男孩只是静静的开着车,什么也没有说,偶尔会有一丝笑在脸上.

  酒精在冲动的驱使下发作了.女孩吐了,男孩靠边停了车,女孩大发脾气,指责男孩给了她这样一个不愉快的生日,说了一些很伤感情的事情,男孩一直无语, 只是一只手拿着纸巾,一只手拿着矿泉水.女孩突然跑到了三环主路,男孩没有拉住她,两个人就这样在公路上拉扯着,突然,一辆飞驰的快车直奔两个人行驶过 来,男孩想都没想的扔掉了手中的东西.推开了女孩,女孩的头重重的摔到了地上,等她苏醒的时候,她已经躺在了医院,头上绑着绷带.

  那辆飞速行驶汽车的司机,证明是酒后驾车.

  男孩被撞出了15米,当120到的时候,他嘴里一边涌着血一直说着〃别管我,看我女朋友怎么样?

  到了医院,男孩已经去了另一个世界,他最后的一话是毛毛熊,毛毛熊在他的要求下,被医护人员带上了救护车,他在这个世界上最后的一段路,就是这只小熊一直陪着他.

  女孩得知男孩离去的消息,一直在哭,哭的昏过去了好几次.

  一个有心的护士把小熊送到了她的枕边.

  女孩再一次从昏厥中醒来,看着小熊,上边有着男孩的血,似乎有着男孩的体温,她紧紧的把它抱在了胸前,轻轻的抚摩着它,突然摸一件很硬的东西,女孩从 小熊的口袋里摸出了一件东西,一个戒指盒,里面有一枚漂亮的钻石戒指,女孩看到这一切,彻底崩溃了,她拼命的哭,用力的撕着自己的头发和头上的绷带,但是 一切似乎都没有意义了.

  女孩去了太平间,那是的男孩身上的血迹已经被擦干,他干干净净的,安详的躺在那里,嘴角还是有着一丝坏坏的笑,女孩用手抚摩着男孩的头,泪水从眼角划落,她不想哭出声,因为男孩不喜欢她哭.

  女孩第二天就出院了,回到了他们的屋子~

  打开房门,她被眼前的一切惊呆了,房间里满是玫瑰,桌子上有一个大大的蛋糕,旁边的一个保温餐盒和一张卡片.

  打开餐盒里面是她最爱喝的汤.

  打开卡片里面写着:

  嫁给我,你一辈子都不会后悔,你一辈子都会感觉温暖,我会一辈子让你幸福,我会一直守侯在你的身边,我会每天叫你起床,为你做你喜欢的早餐,送你上 班,时刻惦记你,随时给你电话和信息,不让孤独的感觉伴随你一时一刻,晚上我会接你下班,为你做晚饭,晚上让你在我的怀中睡去后再静静睡去.家里事情你做 主,但是家务还是我来吧,我身体比较好点.如果应酬,我会在11点前回家,如果出差我会把你这几天食物准备好,当然还有你爱吃的零食.其实爱情就是简简单 单两个人的幸福,我们的幸福才刚刚开始,希望……

  女孩再也看不下去了,她看到了房间里仿佛满使他们的欢声笑语,满是他们的蜜语甜言,往日的情景一下子,涌入了她的心头,她在自责,在懊悔,在埋怨……

  想着到底是谁背叛了那曾经美好的东西.

  曾经的幸福这个时候变的尖锐,曾经的欢笑这个时候变的灰色.

  男孩火化的那天女孩没有去.

  女孩一个人静静的呆在他们爱的屋子,看着他们出去旅游时的录象,轻轻的用去年生日哪天男孩送他那把藏刀割开了自己的手腕……

  窗头放着一张卡片:

  亲爱的我来了,没有你的日子我好难过.

  是我错了,你走的这几天,我一直在回味我们在一起的日子,你的体温你的气味你的坏笑和你做的饭,你是个骗子你说过一生守护我的,没有你,一个人睡觉好冷的,没有你做饭我肚子好饿,没有你在身边我好孤单,你慢点走,我来了,虽然你没有实现你的承诺,但是我还是真的爱你,坏蛋我来了,慢点走,在前面等我, 我来了……

Thursday, 6 August 2009

Music @ Songs

First of all, i want to ask a question which is totally irrelevant to the title.

"What happen to me?"

Recently i keep on feeling uncomfortable or uneasy on something, but i don't know what is it. I feel like everything is not on the right track; like something weird had happen (but i don't know what happen actually), is just some feeling that keep creep me out. Until yesterday, i think i figure it out. For some reason, something or someone that i thought i had let it go long ago; in fact, it doesn't, it still alive within me (somehow somewhere within me).

How i figure this out? Well, last night i was listening to music while i am driving home. In fact, it is just a song, one particular song that i played it repeatedly for the whole journey home. It is a chinese song, a new song "Tank - 如果我变成回忆"...
It is a sad song; and i was touched by the lyrics so much. The song keep on playing and playing; my mind keep on flash back some memories, very clear yet blur memories, which i confused so much. I thought i had let it go. But why now still able to haunt me? I don't know. But i do know, very weird, i enjoy the moment, the silent moment, me alone in the car listening to the repeated same song, i enjoy this moment, is like the world had freeze and it just left me alone. But too bad, such a nice song, very touching lyrics which pull me deep into deep dreamy imagination; but in reality, i never had such imagined moment in my life.

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OMG! What i am typing now? What i try to tell here? I don't know anymore...
Well, just share this song's lyric here; please enjoy it...

Tank - 如果我变成回忆

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例 想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸缝隙连累
依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

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Monday, 3 August 2009

小女生大氣度

女生氣度

有一對小姐妹每天放學後,一定會一起到我們的便利商店光顧,因為這對姐妹乍看之下與其他人並無不同,甚至普通到讓人過目即忘,直到我見識到她們之間相處模式那一刻開始。

這個姐姐的外表看來文文靜靜,但脾氣卻異常火爆,每次到店裡來,總會看見她嚴厲的對妹妹進行「機會教育」,最常聽見的有;

「妳是笨蛋嗎?這個快要到期了,還拿。」

要不然就是:
「妳是白癡呀!明明寫買一送一,妳還只拿一個。」

更狠的還有:
「妳這隻豬,金額超過了妳不會算嗎?」
等等之類的。

那個挨罵的妹妹,居然一聲也不吭的就任由姐姐罵,還依然氣定神閒的挑選她想要的東西,且絲毫不受影響。

某天又到了放學時間,但令人意外的是這天只有妹妹一個人來,我見那個潑辣的姐姐不在,於是便和她聊起天來。

「妹妹,今天怎麼只有妳一個人?」
我問。

「姐姐感冒了,所以請假。」
妹妹朝我一笑,樣子相當可愛。

「我覺得妳姐姐好兇喔!」
我試探性的表示。

「還好啦!不要理她就好了。」
妹妹在賣場逛著,神情相當愉快。

「可是她每天都那樣罵妳,妳不生氣嗎?」
我好奇的問。

「愛生氣的人是她又不是我,而且被罵一下又不會痛。」
妺妹嘟嘟嘴道。

是嗎?小小年紀居然可以這麼豁達,真是不可思議,反觀自己,也許是從小就養尊處優慣了,所以現在才會稍微被責備一下就難過得想死,吃了點虧就非得要據理力爭不可,在精神層面她真是比我強太多了.......。

「阿姨,我要買這個。」
妹妹拿著一支冰棒到櫃檯來結帳了,我一看正好是促銷品,於是對她道:
「妹妹,這個現在買一送一喔!妳可以再去拿一支。」
我以為她的反應一定和其他小朋友一樣,先是眼睛一亮然後滿心歡喜,不料她卻對我說:
「可是我現在只想吃一支就好,另外一支就送給別人好了。」
說完對我揮揮手便走了。

看著妹妹一蹦一跳的離去,我忽然有很深的感觸,這個小女孩太特別了,甚至讓我覺得在某方面我必須向她學習。

挨罵,她可以不在意;多的,她也不貪心,如果有人都能以這麼簡單、純真的心來面對這世界,我想紛爭與悲劇應該就可以終止了吧!

一個人的快樂,不是因為他擁有的多,而是因為他計較的少。

要恢復赤子之心..........
我們都還要多多努力耶!!

........互勉之^^

白領階級

今天發了薪水,交了房租、水電瓦斯費,買了油、米和泡麵, 摸摸口袋剩下的錢,感歎一聲:

這月薪水又 “白領” 了!

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

DOA? Dead or Alive!


OLD is when you are napping...
but everyone is worried that you are DEAD!!!
Sigh......

Burry? and Revive?

Haha... Yeah... Right... i want to burry the past... and revive as another brand new me ~ yeah... after that stupid sms i sent few months ago... my past was totally burried deep down inside already... and nobody can dig it out from me anymore... not even myself...
Haha... move on ~ move on ~ move on ~ the brand new me is now here... and i appreciate another brand new YOU... but not the past YOU... hehe...

PS: i think nobody can understand what i am trying to say here... wakakakaka...

Thursday, 16 July 2009

Numb?

Sigh...

Such a long time never update my blog... almost 1 month plus already... who knows - once update, is again negative emotion energy... ahhHHH... really not happy in work... OMG... who can help me!?

Express different opinion also wrong?
Voice out different thinking also wrong?
Stand up and fight against unfair stuff also wrong?
No right to speak out freely?
Have to be numb in work?
Do everything with two eyes close tightly?
Be a puppet follow whatever order regardless have any concern?

I really dont know what is the answer for these question above. I had asked myself for many times in heart already. Keep on search and search for the answer, but i cant even get 1 answer for 1 of the question. Is is i am too stuborn? Is it i am too headstrong? Is it i am such a fighting cock as people speak behind?

Yeah, i admit i may not be the one that do everything all correct. Actually i also never said i am all correct. But i just try to get my job done perfectly. I just try to speak out my opinion. No matter accept or not, why cannot just discuss nicely? Why have to have all these office politic play around? I dont understand!!!

SOMEONE... HELP ME... PLEASE!!!!!!

I am definitely have to get out of this!!!!!!

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

Q & A

I didn't expect any answer or reply anymore...
Yeah, i was over sensitive i assume...
But now i wake up already, i am nothing more than just a normal friends...
I get my answer already, thanks ^^

分生

一个我像不会累 一直往前
一个我动弹不得 伤心欲绝
我不确定几个我 住在心里面
偶尔像敌人 偶尔像姊妹
一个我在网路上 朋友一堆
一个我在房间里 独自面对
灰色的音乐 塞满黑夜 High的想麻醉
好让翻搅的胃 安静一点 忘了全世界
分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面
不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了壁垒 等待爆裂
一个我相信用心 会被感觉
一个我大喊真心 会被欺骗
开始的热烈 不停奉献 后来剩决裂
谎言吞噬了心 带来刺痛 撕裂的蜕变
分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面
不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了壁垒 等待爆裂
分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面
不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了壁垒 等待爆裂

阿密特

张惠妹 (阿妹) - 6月26日将发行新专辑 《阿密特》 ,阿密特 A- MIT,是张惠妹的卑南族名字;张惠妹的分身。

更确切来说,她是从 『张惠妹』 这个音乐品牌分身而出的新音乐意识,强调言之有物的音乐态度,不同的音乐呈现方式。
但,意识并不具体存在,也不需固定逻辑形象,阿密特就是 【只为歌唱而活,只为音乐而生】 的歌手。

《分生》 这首歌是赤裸的自我剖析。
阿密特用直接、略带嘶吼的声线诠释出自我人格相互拉扯的复杂与矛盾,在抒情摇滚曲风编制下带出酝酿分,阳台防盗栏杆外已经飘起了雨。
盆子在阳台的右角,雨水先落在窗前铁栏杆再顺着花草的叶脉滴到盆子的土壤里。
吮吸起左裂到完全爆发的情绪状态。

阿密特还特别邀请本尊张惠妹参与MV演出,已概念式拍摄手法真实呈现歌词意境,也让大家看到从张惠妹分身成阿密特的变化过程,更清楚。

Friday, 12 June 2009

活着让你好好爱我!!!

这是一个真实的故事……

一天一个男孩送给他的女朋友一台汉显传呼机,温柔的对她说:“我以后再也不怕找不到你了。”女孩调皮的说:“如果我离开这座城市,你就呼不到我了。”男孩得意的摇摇头:“我可是办了漫游的,无论你走到哪里我都会呼到你”

女孩问他的传呼号是什么,男孩说:“这是爱情专线,号码不公开。”从此女孩每天都把它带在身边,一刻也不离开。在一个 阳光明媚,让人有一份好的不得了的心情的周末,女孩只留了一张字条给父母,坐上汽车奔向邻近的县城游玩,但是没有人知道女孩正走向一场灾难。

女孩县城玩了一天,拖着沉沉的脚步找到一间带淋浴的小旅馆。一走进房间,女孩迫不及待的走进浴室,想洗去一身的疲惫。当女孩正准备脱衣服的时候,脚下一阵晃动,她急忙扶住一根铁管,心想错觉吗?但是当第二次晃动,女孩知道这不是错觉。 跟随第二次的晃动中还带有急促和沉闷的断裂声,女孩的全身开始颤栗,她知道可怕的地震来了,随着第三第四次的更加猛烈的震动,无边的黑暗和无边的恐惧把女孩紧紧的包裹起来女孩象一只受伤的野兽,拼命的放声号叫,拼命的拍打、撕咬浴室的门板。然而一切都是徒劳,女孩无力的蜷缩在阴凉冷漠的地上。

不知过了多久,忽然腰间一阵颤动,是呼机。女孩匆匆的摘下它,在黑暗中摸索着按到了键子,即看到了绿色的光芒:“林先生请你七点钟到老地方见面。”读着这句话,女孩的泪水又一次涌出来,滑过嘴角。咸咸涩涩的。想着电话那边的他,女孩又再一次尝试着走出困境,但是是再一次的徒劳与绝望。女孩跌坐在地上,把自己缩成一团,眼睛盯着呼机的屏幕。

不知过了多久,女孩睡着了,又不知过了多久,呼机再一次在女孩的手中颤动了:“林先生问你在哪里,请速回电话。”女孩再一次的流下眼泪,我想告诉你我在哪里,但是我办不到啊。渐渐的女孩平静了下来,面对无法挽回的死亡,女孩不知道自己还能做什么。

呼机第三次震动:“去了你家,看到你留下的字条,请火速回家。”女孩的心又开始躁动。呼机第四震动:“我听到广播,知道你那里发生了什么,相信你此时正拿着呼机读我的话,我们很快会见面的。”似乎有一缕曙光在女孩的眼前闪过。女孩期待呼机第五次的震动 ,此时的呼机成了他生命唯一的寄托。

时间一分一秒的过去了,呼机象一个疲惫的孩子一样睡着了。终于第五次的震动来了:“我去找你,车不通,想尽各种办法,还是无功而返。我相信你不会出问题的,你是一个聪明又好运的女孩。我等待你的归来!”第六次,第七次。。。。女孩在男孩一次又一次的传呼 中度过了一个又一个恐惧与绝望的时刻,不知不觉已经两天两夜了。

死亡的阴影越来越紧的箍住女孩的全身,仿佛看到自己体内的鲜血和肌肉正被一条黑色的巨蛇一口一口贪婪的吞噬。女孩觉得自己快不行了,连哭泣的力量都没有了,她的思想开始混乱,感觉自己正在往下沉,就在沉到底的时候,呼机第三十八次,也许第四十八次,五十八次震动起来,那震动象磁铁一样,牢牢的吸住了女孩体内残余的所有能量:“我们什么时候结婚?举行哪些仪式?从现在开始我们分别设想一下,日后评出最佳方案。”

结婚,婚礼,实在是太诱人了,女孩陷入了遐想之中。海底婚礼,象鱼一样自由自在穿梭在海洋世界;跳伞婚礼,与白云并肩飞在空中……女孩再一次振作起来,是啊,人生那么美好,又有多少美好的人生的等着我呢。第六十次,第六十一次。

男孩一次又一次的向女孩传呼,一次又一次的给女孩 注入生命的活力;一次又一次的把女孩的生存信念从崩溃的边缘拉回来……

度过了漫长的四个昼夜,女孩获救了。当他看到男孩惨白的脸,火一样的眼睛,一下子明白了世间最为珍贵的就是爱。女孩在担架上轻轻的拉着男孩的手,柔柔的说:“我是你今生的新娘”。

Time is the Essence

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man... College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, 'Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday..' Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

'Jack, did you hear me?'

'Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago,' Jack said.

'Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it,' Mom told him.

'I loved that old house he lived in,' Jack said.

'You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life,' she said.

'He's the one who taught me carpentry,' he said. 'I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,' Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word... Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture......Jack stopped suddenly.

'What's wrong, Jack?' his Mom asked..

'The box is gone,' he said

'What box?' Mom asked.

'There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk.. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was 'the thing I value most,' Jack said.

It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

'Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him,' Jack said. 'I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom.'

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. 'Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days,' the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The wrapping was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago.. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. 'Mr. Harold Belser' it read.

Jack took the package out to his car and ripped it open. There inside was the gold box and an envelope.

Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside the envelope. 'Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life.' A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch.

Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved:

'Jack, Thanks for your time! -Harold Belser.'

'The thing he valued most was....my time' Jack told himself disbelievingly.

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days.

'Why?' Janet, his assistant asked.

'I need some time to spend with my son,' he said.

'Oh, by the way, Janet, thanks for your time!'

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away!