(那时候的我,一直都在想,依赖和恋爱到底有什么不一样?如果过去一切的一切都只是我的错觉而已,那我过去的感觉也未免太过逼真,真实了。)

Yes, this is a world which belong to me, where i can express myself freely here. But this is not a normal world. At here, snow is no longer white; shiny day also won't appear here. Here is the hell for a dark angel, a world which belong to the dark angel.

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Thursday, 25 February 2010

Wealth? Success? Love?

A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."

"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.

"No", she replied. "He's out..."

"Then we cannot come in", they replied.
In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened...
"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"
The woman went out and invited the men in"

"We do not go into a House together," they replied.

"Why is that?" she asked.

One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How n ice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth.. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"

His wife disagreed.. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"

Their daughter was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"

"Let us heed our daughter's advice," said the husband to his wife.
"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."
The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, t he lady asked Wealth and Success: "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"

The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!! !"

Friday, 12 February 2010

Old Folks Home Charity

Well, today i follow our company to visit the old folks home at OUG. It's a charity program by our company to bring some happiness to elders during CNY (i guess so?). This is not a pleasant trip i suppose, the weather is super hot until i feel like want to faint on the way. Anyway this visit trigger my feeling - i miss my grandparents!!!
I can see the happiness on the elders' face when there is somebody visiting them; even the visitors are some strangers like us, we still able to bring great happiness to them. Along the morning, on the chit chat session, the elders keep talking to us like we are their grandchildren. Sigh... This remind me of my beloved grandparents.
Since i was a little kid, my grandparents (on mother side) were no longer here, they passed away when my mother is still a teenager. So i only had a pair of grandparents (on father side) throughout my life. And we were so close, as we lived together for years, and they did take care of my and my brother when my parents when away for work. Sigh... Many years passed, i thought that i had got over it. But in fact, i didn't. This visit really trigger my memory, that i miss them so much!!!
Anyway, this is the fact that i cannot change forever, that my grandparents were passed away and no longer with me anymore. On the good side, i believe they are living happily on heaven now (i suppose?)... because myself also not really into any cultural believes. Anyway, "gong gong" and "po po"... you will blessed me from heaven right? I miss you so much!!! So damn much!!!!!!

Tuesday, 9 February 2010

I Want to Know What LOVE is...

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is...
I want you to show me...
I wanna feel what love is...
I know you can show me...

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me...
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me...

In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life!

I wanna know what love is...
I want you to show me...
I wanna feel what love is...
I know you can show me...


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我需要一点时间,一点思考事情的时间。。。
我不知道我能否再次面对那刺心般的痛苦。。。
但是,为了改变这种孤独的生活。。。
我想知道什么是爱。。。
我想感受什么是爱。。。
我知道你能告诉我!!!!!!

Monday, 8 February 2010

现代名句精华

• 樹多必有枯枝,人多必有白癡。
• 君子報仇,三年不晚。小人報仇,一天到晚。
• 醫生叫我行光合作用,別熬夜 。
• 帥有個屁用!到頭來還不是被卒吃掉!
• 騎白馬的不一定是王子,可能是唐僧;帶翅膀的不一定是天使,也可能是「鳥人」。
• 就算是Believe 中間還是有個 lie。
• 就算是Friend 最後還是會有個 end
• 就算是Lover 最後還是會 over。
• 就算是forget 也要先 get才行。
• 就算有個wife 心裡也要假設 if。
• 壓力始終來自於新台幣! (人民幣)
• 樹不要皮,必死無疑。人不要臉,天下無敵。
• 人生(人蔘),不過比當歸長一點。
• 懷才就像懷孕,時間久了才能讓人看出來。
• 上帝給了我們七情六慾,我們卻把它們變成了色情和暴力。
• 最浪漫的三個字不是「我愛你」,而是「在一起」。
• 前程四緊就是:手頭緊、眉頭緊、衣服緊、時間緊。
• 青春就像衛生紙。看著挺多的,用著用著就不夠了。
• 女人的愛是用說的,男人的愛是用做的。
• 幸福離我們很近,但,我們都忘了靠近。
• 天底下沒有所謂複雜的事情,是人的思維和感情把它複雜化了。
• 福利不是問題,問題是沒福利。錢不是問題,問題是沒錢。
• 今日事今日畢,過了今日就不必。
• 皮夾裡的發票永遠比鈔票多。
• 我不是隨便的人,但我隨便起來不是人。

Friday, 5 February 2010

Chinese Horoscope 2010 Feb 14 - 2011 Feb 2

General

Your luck has been continuously improving for the third consecutive year and the year of the Tiger will be even better than the Ox year. You will be popular and be able to get support easily and more opportunities will open up for you. Your focus will be strong and this will be the right time to pick up new skills, take classes or get involved in strategy planning. This will be an enjoyable but busier year and prioritization of tasks will be important especially as time will be limited. When compared with other years, betrayals and backstabbing might not be as severe. However, you will still remain the center of gossip and be involved in arguments. Avoid spending too much time and energy on such matters. Instead channel your energy to reap the best of this year and focus on positive matters. Your wealth luck will be good and there will be many opportunities for you to increase your income and wealth. However, stick to taking calculated risks only. You can be receptive to wealth but that will not imply that you jump into every possible opportunity blindly. You will also need to watch your expenses. Your health will be average but your elders’ health will be poor. Relationship matters will be a bit unstable but will not be major problem if handled well.

Career

You will have a lot of fun and enjoyment at work this year. Although you will have a very tight schedule, you will feel fruitful and satisfied. Further, you will gain support from authority figures and peers easily and they will even help you voluntarily whenever challenges arise. As many of you will have this tendency to work yourself too hard, you might want to try delegating. If you feel overworked, cry out and help will be on its way. There will also be other people giving you more and better opportunities to perform or provide you with precious leads. It will be a smooth sailing year at work in general. There might be some gossip pertaining to you, arguments or a few people trying to make things difficult for you, but nothing will be able to dampen your mood or cause adequate harm to you. Focus on the positive matters and fully utilize the opportunities that will be given. This will be a good time to implement your plans with regard to your career plans.

Business will be even better than last year. You will be able to gain support from all the relevant people easily. Many people will assist you along the way and even provide you with good business leads. Although you will be showered with many opportunities, it will be important that you do not take them for granted and catch them before they slip away. You will be able to convince, negotiate and lead better. As it will be a smooth sailing year, you will tend to fill your schedule and will be all over the place. You might want to stay focused rather than trying to do too much and having to drop tasks along the way. You will also get wind of gossip concerning yourself or might be involved in disputes. Do not get too bothered by them because there will be much better uses of your time and energy. This will be a good time to bring your business to the next level or derive fantastic plans as you have built it up greatly over the past one-year. You will want to research into how to stretch every dollar that has been put in to expanding your business as you will not want to waste it and end up overspending.

Wealth

There will be many opportunities for you to increase your income or commissions this year. You might discover some opportunities on your own while others might introduce or share business leads with you. You might want to be positive and receptive to receiving abundance in order to take advantage of this year. While you are being receptive, it will not connote that you open yourself to being short-changed or cheated. You might still want to do your calculations to check on the risks taken. Due to your very giving personality, you will tend to share your good fortune with others during your good times. However, you will want to remember to keep some for yourself as your generous mood might cause you to overspend. Watch your expenses and be careful of how you spend your money.

Relationship

If you are single, this will be a good year to increase your social circle and you will be able to meet more interesting people. You might not want to rush into committing to a relationship yet, but rather give yourself and the other party more time to get to know each other. If you are in a relationship, there will be more squabbles than in previous years. As you will be spending more time on other aspects of your life, your partner might feel neglected and your partner might also feel envious of you having to socialize more than usual and their suspicions might start kicking in. Although they will want to trust you, it will be unusually tough when it comes to matters of the heart. You might want try to be patient and understanding with them. You will also want to include your partner in your activities or try to spend more quality time together.

Health

Your health will be quite stable during this year and there will be no indications of major accidents or life threatening injuries. One of the potential problems that might arise will be that you might be very busy this year and be involved in more social activities or even more nightlife that you might end up neglecting your own health. Bear in mind that no matter how tight your schedule might be you will need to allocate some time for rest. You will not need to compromise your health and proper sleeping hours in order to obtain business or sales opportunities. On the contrary, in order to reap the best out of this year, you will need to have a clear mind and a healthy body. Elders at home might have poor health and safety and as such you might want to keep a look out over them.

People

In general, you will be able to make more friends and get more support this year than previously. The people issues this year will be very mild compared to previous years. Although there will still be people bad mouthing or quarreling with you, they will not be able to cause much impact to you. The reason for them acting in this way will not be because they dislike your personality but rather they just simply feel uncomfortable and jealous of you leading a better life than previously. Their reaction will have nothing to do with you but will only demonstrate that they might be having some issues with themselves and you will not want to get too affected by them as your attention will be required in many other more important areas. As you will be doing well this year, you will find that those who had forsaken you previously when you were going through a tough time might suddenly appear and want to be your friends. It will be fine to be friendly with them but at the same time always maintain your guard. Finally, you will want to focus on making friends or keeping in contact with those who are sincere and will be helpful to you.

十二生肖流年運程分析

亥(猪)

福星临门,猪事平安

新的一年里猪朋友的吉星多凶星少,“福星”高照,仍然能够延续去年的平稳之势过个稳中见吉的虎年,但由于偏冲太岁,谨记一切都要保持低调不要太过招摇才是重要的关键。虎年里猪朋友的主要凶星有会带来许多是非口舌及个人情绪上的问题出现的“卷舌”星及破财的“劫煞”的负面影响,但只好管理好钱财及自身的情绪,不与人争吵也不转牛角尖,在吉星的拱照之下都可以平安度过难关。在吉星方面,能解众灾且助力强大的“天德”星入座,猪朋友的凶星黯然失色,所造成的负面影响遇到此星都能逢凶化吉,再加上“福星”高照更能达到锦上添花的效用。此外,得到“文昌”星的帮助,在虎年里应考的莘莘学子们可望考取到好成绩,然而从事文艺创作的你将头脑清晰创作不断;而从事业务行业的朋友们在今年也有突破现状的希望,只要加倍表现自己再加上“福星”的高照,必定更能顺风顺水,创下骄人的业绩。

財運:
在得到大貴人星“天德”的帮助之下,對属猪的朋友整体財運來說只要是謀定的許多事情都能一蹴而就。

健康:
猪朋友在虎年里保持良好的飲食及适量的運動必能在一整年里不受病痛的困扰。

感情:
虎年里猪朋友常會出現情緒上的問題,喜歡往不好的方面去想,即便是密戀中的猪朋友亦會受到這股不利的情緒影响。

事業:
同樣因為情緒的影响而造成同事之間出現小磨擦,是非不斷,但所幸的是福星高照,吉星又為你帶來良好的運气。

Friday, 29 January 2010

相见恨早?相见恨晚?

相逢,不是恨晚,便是恨早。

太早遇上你了,我还不懂得爱你。
太早遇上你了,我还不懂得珍惜你。
太早遇上你了,我们的世界还有一大段距离,需要用时间来拉近。
太早遇上你了,我还有很多梦想要实现,你不会理解?也不可能接受。

后来,才觉得遗憾,你出现得太早了,如果能够晚一点,我们的生命都会不同。

为什么我不晚一点才遇上你?


太晚遇上你了,你身边已经另外有一个人。你说:“为什么我没有早一点遇上你?”
我不懂得怎样回答你。

太晚遇上你了,我身边已经另外有一个人。
我说:“如果没有他,我会爱上你,但你为什么不早一点出现?如果六年前就遇上你,一切都会不同。”
你难过地说:“六年前,我身边有另一个人。”

原来,我们从没有在适当的时候相逢。

太晚遇上你了,我现在才知道什么是爱情。我遗憾没有把第一次留给你。
太晚遇上你了,我已经不再像从前那样,会义无反顾地爱一个人。

如果我们恰恰相逢在适当时候,那是多么没可能的事。

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看了很感触的一篇文章,所以就把它给抄了下来。
的确,时机是很重要的。
如果,当初,在对的时候,遇上了对的人,那现在的生活,该会是很不一样吧?

当初的我,很天真,遇上了,就很自然,本能反应似的,付出了一切。
现在的我,遇上了,会很努力地去维持着一段感情。可是,那种自然反应似的为爱付出的感觉,却不懂去了哪里。。。

Friday, 15 January 2010

Boar

优点 -- 专心致志,比较乐观,诚实真挚,有同情心,能信任他人。

缺点 -- 不坚定,易动感情,自我宽容,对谎话缺乏辨别力。

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OMG... looks like so damn accurate...... !!!

白羊座 - 終極完美分析

'白羊嗎?太恐怖了!他們脾氣大、暴力、瞧不起人,還是躲遠些、小心為妙!'
  
  如果你這麼認為,那你可能就會失去一個肯為你付出生命的人。受火星的灼燒,白羊決不是人們想像中的那種冷血狂魔!
(我不是吗?)
  
  白羊的內心世界有兩個:恨的世界與愛的世界。白羊的外顯世界與內心世界是同步的,只不過由於他的'恨'意更昭顯,以至於掩蓋了他愛的那一面。
  
  白羊很善良,心中總是想著別人,很多時候願意委屈自己而成全別人,但由於白羊不能掩飾自己的情感,凡事爭鋒,有什麼不滿就會立刻表露出來,於是不能將美事做盡,落個徹底的好人,反而最後還招來一鼻子灰!比如,白羊想看愛情連續劇,你想看科教片,於是你們就開始為了看什麼而打架。如果你硬看科教片,則白羊會大吵大罵,最後'砰'的把電視給關上!白羊心裡想,電視又不是你一個人的,憑什麼只許你看不許我看?!你不讓我看,你也別想看!但如果白羊佔了上風,看上了愛情連續劇,而你默默的走開,則白羊一會兒又會覺得過意不去,心疼你,怕你不高興,於是讓你看。一句話,白羊是重形式不重實質,極度不能容忍別人挑戰他的權威。
  
  其實,白羊是那種死要面子活受罪的人。面子,比白羊的生命還重要!白羊最不能容忍的就是別人貶低他、瞧不起他!誰要是對白羊吼幾嗓子,白羊能吼誰24個小時。比如,上司若是責備白羊不當,則白羊就會氣勢洶洶的反責備上司,而且責備的更歡。上司責備他一句,他能責備上司10句!!當上司解雇了這個不肖員工以後,白羊不但不傷心,反而還有種壯烈感:'雖然丟了工作,但是丟得值!我當著那麼多人的面罵了上司一頓,真是露臉!嗯,同事們現在一定還在議論我的英雄事跡……'白羊邊重新找工作邊想,想著想著,自己便不禁暗笑起來,接著便是昂首闊步,得意洋洋,覺得自己真是了不起、不可一世!
  
  白羊愛面子,都愛到了成癖的地步。白羊希望別人喜歡他、愛戴他、吹捧他,最好能對他前呼後擁、關懷備至。白羊男們總是感慨自己為何沒能當上總統,白羊女們則從來都認為自己是總統夫人的料兒,只是不小心找錯了男朋友!白羊總覺得自己是個天才,只是因為懷才不遇才淪落到今天這種無名小卒的地步。比如,白羊認為自己天生就是個藝術家,只是張藝謀導演沒發現他。若是張導發現他,他一定比鞏麗要出色的多!由於白羊喜歡那種高高在上的感覺,所以,只要你平素多吹捧著他、讚美著他,則他便會'累死不知死'的對你,你喜歡他怎樣他就會怎樣。
  
  白羊很溫柔,只要你沒惹著他,你可以隨便與他嬉戲。但如果你要是有什麼一不小心的舉動觸犯了他,則最好趕快給自己準備個棺材。比如,白羊與你打情罵俏,很開心的氣氛,雙方都樂在其中。忽然,你一不小心,出手重了些,打痛了白羊,則白羊就會立刻瞪大眼睛、提高嗓門,把你罵個狗血噴頭,甚至再狠狠的還你兩個更重的巴掌。此時,歡樂的氣氛一下陷入了僵局,弄得你心裡彆扭至極。但白羊卻認為,鬧歸鬧,你也總得有個限度吧,出手沒輕沒重,真是討厭,我的漂亮的手都被你打紅了!想著想著,白羊會更生氣,弄不好再轟炸你一次~~~不過,過了10分鐘,白羊又開始和你有說有笑,好像什麼事情也沒發生過。白羊凡事都來得快,去得也快,一般不記仇。
  
  你也許會說:'白羊不記仇?怎麼可能!他們總是抓住別人的錯誤不放!'但是,白羊確實不記仇,他們抓住別人的錯誤不放,實際上是為了時刻提醒對方,不要再犯同樣的錯誤!比如,白羊的愛人有外遇,但經過一番周折,兩個人又和好了。那麼,在以後的生活中,白羊會時常責罵愛人當初是怎麼的拋棄自己、自己是多麼多麼的不幸、自己的心靈受到了多大多大的創傷!白羊之所以會這末做,主要有兩個原因:一方面,每當白羊想起這些,就會十分的激火、生氣,於是非罵愛人一頓不可,以解心頭之恨;另一方面,白羊這麼做是要時刻提醒愛人,以後不能再有外遇了,變相給愛人敲警鐘!

白羊是那種把自己的快樂建築在別人的痛苦之上的人,因為白羊愛滿處宣揚別人的糗事。比如,他會在大庭廣眾之下,說你們小時候一起玩耍時你不小心尿了褲子,更或者,他會對你的心上人說你有愛挖鼻孔的習慣(偶服了白羊了~~~)。但是,白羊並不覺得說這些有什麼不可以,因為在白羊心裡,這些都是那麼的美好,是童年的回憶、是人生百態的小花絮。他們說你的糗事,僅僅是因為他們覺得好玩,覺得很甜美,能給人帶來樂趣,把別人的目光都集中到自己身上來,讓別人認為自己是開心果!白羊完全沒有挖苦你、拆你愛情道路的意思,只是結果往往……
  
  白羊天生氣質非凡,人中龍鳳。白羊的人生宗旨是'活出自己'。由於白羊天性中有桀驁的一面,於是在與人相處的時候,就不自覺的流露出一種傲慢的氣息。由於白羊的這種不自覺的擺譜兒,以至於不瞭解白羊的人都躲著白羊,因為他們覺得白羊看不起人。但如果有個機會接觸了白羊,則人們又會認為白羊是那麼的好接近、那麼的好心腸。白羊自己覺不出自己的傲慢,心中只是暗暗納悶:為什麼別人總躲著我,我是多麼的平易近人、和藹可親啊!!!
  
  白羊多沒主見,耳朵根兒軟,自己做好壞分析的能力很差。白羊極富正義感,喜歡讓不公正的事情昭雪。但是,由於白羊的沒主見,使得白羊的正義感帶有一廂情願的色彩。比如,白羊認為從一而終是種正義,於是,任何發生婚外情的人都會受到白羊的譴責與蔑視。白羊認為,我一生下來,父母、老師就告訴我要從一而終,難道我堅持從一而終還會有錯誤嗎?!白羊不明白,任何的一樁善也是一樁惡,正義與否遠非能用是否從一而終而簡單定論。這也可從一個側面反映出白羊是個簡單的人,任何複雜的事情到白羊手中都會變得簡單、易行(人生能有這種魄力也實在是一件美事)。
  
  由於白羊沒主見,所以白羊本能的喜歡和能安慰自己的人在一起。白羊心裡存不住東西,遇到什麼事情都要對別人說,因為白羊認為,別人能緩解他心中的不愉快,能幫他解脫痛苦。白羊非常需要外界的支持,否則,白羊就會感到非常的無助、焦慮。比如,白羊在公共汽車上遇到了流氓摸他,則他在公交車上就能大吵大罵起來。之後,上至曾祖父母,下至玄孫子女,旁至堂表眾親戚,外至朋友鄰里,他都能將此事一五一十的向他們每一個人敘述一遍。敘述完後,別人一定要響應他、安慰他幾句,否則他又會向你敘述一遍,沒完沒了的嘮叨此事。
  
  白羊對待感情亦是反應神速。若你向白羊示意愛慕之情,則白羊若喜歡你,第二天你們便成了情侶;若白羊不喜歡你,就會躲你遠遠的。你若窮追不捨,他還會一點面子不留的直指責你:'躲我遠點,我不喜歡你!否則我打你!'(汗~~~)在白羊心中,喜歡就是喜歡,討厭就是討厭,沒那麼多的的曖昧不清。
  
  白羊喜歡那種有驚世駭俗之舉的人,因為白羊覺得只有這種人才配得上自己。比如,你們約會,到了吃飯的時間,你最好帶白羊去釣魚台吃,就算你的錢只夠在釣魚台喝瓶礦泉水,白羊也會因你的這個壯舉而愛死你;你若帶白羊去吃街頭的麻辣燙,那末你就做好被白羊蹬了的準備吧!
  
  白羊的性慾很旺盛,但由於他們很顧及自己的面子,所以總是光想不練。換句話說,就是白羊的淫意很嚴重。比如,在公共汽車上,身邊坐著一個漂亮MM或GG,於是,白羊就開始對其產生了無盡的有關性的想像……由於白羊的行動力超強,所以做起愛來也是超神速。

Thursday, 14 January 2010

Travel

OMG...

From a friend's blog, get to know that he just visited Singapore not long ago; and realize that myself had been too long never travel to overseas already.

History:

1993 - Singapore trip with family and relatives
2005 - Hong Kong backpack trip with friends
2006 - Liverpool (TARC transfer program for Degree)
2006 - Scottland backpack trip with friends
2006 - Hong Kong backpack trip alone

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Until now, i never travel!!!!!!
OMG!!!

2010 - Bangkok backpack trip with friends (coming soon on August)

Meanwhile, i must plan for other trips to go!!!
This is 2010 TARGET!!!

TRAVEL!!! TRAVEL!!!

AND TRAVEL!!!!!!

Tuesday, 12 January 2010

笨?傻?不。。。是白痴!

我是怎样的一个人啊?
我自己也不是很懂了。
是笨吧?
还是傻?
我想应该是白痴吧?对了,是白痴。

曾经,留级了一年,因为自己最相信的朋友。过去了,谁是谁非,再讨论都是枉然了。想说的是,当朋友在背后做了很多事情的时候,自己竟然一点都察觉不到。等到知道时,一切都太迟了,没救了。因为自己的愚蠢,而花了老妈子多少老妈子辛苦赚回来的钱。因为自己的愚蠢,令到自己一个人孤身往国外闯。

也曾经,因为自己的处理不当,而失了对自己兄弟的承诺。自己唯一的老弟,结果就这样翻脸了,没了联络。而今想起心里都还是隐隐作痛。可是对方好像都不太把这当一回事,难道这些年的兄弟都是当假的吗?是我太念旧了?还是我跟时代脱节了?现在的人都应该是很洒脱吧?

也曾经,因为某位的利用而愤然绝交。可是每当回想,终会觉得很遗憾。朋友是拿来利用的吗?交朋友都是要用利益来衡量吗?对方的利用,却会令自己对这段友情觉得惋惜。是我太天真吗?还是怎么了?

更曾经,被自己最信任的朋友给出卖了。多年的交情,都抵不过一个还没打追到手的未来情人吗?为了追求一个人,竟然一个谎言盖一个地欺骗自己的朋友,很好吗?而我,竟然对那些谎言毫不保留地相信了。就因为“友情”这两个字而已。就算其他朋友给了警告,自己还是选择相信,为什么啊?是相信这人性本善吗?是因为自己白痴吧!

而,很大落差的是,学院时期的我,虽然也做过不少傻事,可是却绝对不会吃一点的亏。对每一个人的每一句话,都会用心里那一把尺给量过。。。要相信吗?要信多少分?一切都是依着理智到接近冷血的思考来判断。而自己所说的每一句话,也依着对方的喜好而说出来,绝对是三思而后行。那时的自己是绝对不会发生以上所说的任何一件事。

那我到底怎么了?
我很累了。我不想处处都盘算着。我只是想依着自己的本性做事情,任意妄为一下下。难道真的行不通吗?难道现实世界,我真的必须好像以前那样本着一把尺做人吗?做任何事都得盘算过利与弊先吗?难道真的不能率性一点,以真性情见人?

晕。。。
都是些没有答案的问题。。。
或许在我找出答案之前,武装起来保护一下自己,伤害一下别人,是无可厚非的吧?

我。。。就是这样一个白痴!!!

Monday, 11 January 2010

JERK!!!!!!

Why this world must have such a jerk!!!

男生有了女朋友后的20个惨状‏

一、没认识你之前我拿奖学金,认识你之后我差点补考。

二、我忍着让别人笑话的耻辱给你洗衣服。

三、一个苹果,都给你吃。两个苹果,我把大的给你吃。

四、同吃一条鱼,我让你吃鱼肉,我自己吃鱼头。

五、你这么难看,我还说你漂亮。我这么帅,你还说我难看。

六、出去玩都是我花钱,回来我只能吃萝卜(你省下钱当然可以自己吃鱼翅了)。

七、认识你之前我没交过女朋友。认识我之前你交了两个男朋友。

八、你生气时,我让你当出气筒。我生气时,我把自己当出气筒。

九、你想吻我的时候就可以吻我。我想吻你的时候还要经过你同意。

十、你经常打我,我从来没有打过你。

十一、有一次你问我如果你爱上别的男人了我会怎样,我说我要杀了那个男的。我又问你如果我爱上了别的女人了你会怎样,你说你要阉了我。

十二、我买了200块的衣服给你,骗你才50块。你买了30块的手表给我,骗我要300块。

十三、我把你的耳机用坏了,我买新的赔你。你把我的自行车丢了,连句对不起也没说。

十四、你生病一次,我要瘦两斤。我生病一次,你反而胖两斤(你来寝室陪我,吃光了我所有的零食。)

十五、我没嫌你矮,你却嫌我高。

十六、你来我家,我睡沙发。我去你家,还是我睡沙发。

十七、那次去看露天演唱会,你骑在我头上看得津津有味,我被你压在下面在人群中流泪。

十八、我家的狗生了,我把最好看的一条送给你。你却把你养得快要死掉的金鱼送给我,害我才养两天就得给它们送终。

十九、我给你洗了N次的袜子,从未给你丢过一只。你只在我生病的时候给我洗了两双袜子,就各丢一只。

二十、我陪你去买东西时我主动帮你提东西,你却从来没问过要不要帮我提东西。

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个人意见:
其实这些惨状,不只是男生有了女朋友后才会发生的。其实,反过来,女生有了男朋友后也是会发生这些惨状的。重点是,在一段关系里,双方是不是处于平等的地位?如果只是其中一方高高在上的话,那惨状就无时无刻都在发生了。认同???

小故事

每个人都背负着一个沉重的十字架,在缓慢而艰难地前行!­

途中,有一个人忽然停了下来。他在想着什么!­

他想,上帝啊,这个十字架太沉重了,我可以把十字架砍掉一块!

于是他动手砍了起来!­

砍掉之后走起来,的确是轻松了很多,他的步伐也不由得加快了。­

就这样走啊走啊!走着走着,他觉得肩上的十字架还是很沉,很重!­

他祈求道,上帝啊,请你让我再砍掉一截吧,我会走得更轻松!­

于是,他又砍掉了一截!­

感谢上帝,这样一来,他感到轻松多了!­

如此,他毫不费力地就走到了队伍的最前面。当其他人在吃力地负重前行时,他却轻松地哼起了小曲!­

啊哈!谁料,前边忽然出现了一个又深又宽的沟壑!沟上没有桥,周围也没有路。也没有蜘蛛侠或者超人出来解救他...

后面的人都慢慢地赶上来了,他们用自己背负的十字架搭在沟上,做成桥,从容不迫地跨越了沟壑。­

他也想如法炮制。只可惜啊,他的十字架之前已经被砍掉了长长的一大截,根本无法做成桥帮助他跨越沟壑!

于是,当其他人都在朝着目标继续前进时,他却只能停在原地,垂头丧气,追悔莫及......­

人生的路上我们每个人都背负着各种各样的十字架在艰难前行。它也许是我们的学习,也许是我们的工作,也许是我们必须承担的责任和义务。但是,这也是这些责任和义务,构成了我们在这个世界上存在着的理由和价值。所以,请不要埋怨学习的繁重,工作的劳苦,因为真正的快乐,是奋战后的结果,没有经历深刻的痛苦,我们也就体会不到酣畅淋漓的快乐!­

每个人都背负着属于自己的十字架,的确是这样,漫画中的每个人,都是背负着属于自己的十字架,而当沟壑出现时,他们也只能利用自己背负的十字架去跨越沟壑,继续前进。­

所以:在人生的道路上,有些黑暗,只能自己穿越;有些痛苦,只能自己体验;有些孤独,也只能自己品尝......人生是没有捷径的!­

人这一辈子就两件事情

是自己必须负责任的事情,那是你特有的甩不开的只属于你自己必须得去做的事情,也就是我们的责任和义务

是自己想的做的事情,也就是你的梦想,你喜欢的工作,你的爱好等一切能令你愉悦的事

无论在追求任何事情的时候,一定谨记不要觉得做些小聪明占点小便宜走点小捷径可以轻松一些,我告诉你,一切皆有因果,老天对万物所有都是平等和公平的,到最后,都是要还的,而且不仅是物质金钱人情那么简单,最后汇聚到一起最大的损失就是自己深深的后悔!!!

皮鞋的来历

很久很久以前,人类都还赤着双脚走路。

有一位国王到某个偏远的乡间旅行,因为路面崎岖不平,有很多碎石头,刺得他的脚又痛又麻。

回到王宫后,他下了一道命令,要将国内的所有道路都铺上一层牛皮。

他认为这样做,不只是为自己,还可造福他的人民,让大家走路时不再受刺痛之苦。

但即使杀尽国内所有的牛,也筹措不到足够的皮革,而所花费的金钱、动用的人力,更不知凡几。

虽然根本做不到,甚至还相当愚蠢,但因为是国王的命令,大家也只能摇头叹息。

一位聪明的仆人大胆向国王提出建言:
「国王啊!为什么您要劳师动众,牺牲那么多头牛,花费那么多金钱呢?您何不只用两小片牛皮包住您的脚呢?」

国王听了很惊讶,但也当下领悟,于是立刻收回成命,改采这个建议。

据说,这就是「皮鞋」的由来。

想改变世界,很难;要改变自己,则较为容易。
与其改变全世界,不如先改变自己--「将自己的双脚包起来」。
改变自己的某些观念和作法,以抵御外来的侵袭。
当自己改变后,眼中的世界自然也就跟着改变了。
如果你希望看到世界改变,那么第一个必须改变的就是自己!!

不要时常埋怨,不要时常感到不满,不要时常有很多怨恨,不要时常问为什么挨骂的又是我呢?? 不要问上天 / 社会 / 家庭 / 老板给于我们什么东西,问一问自己到底给于/ 付出于什么东西给于他们呢?? 不要尝试叫环境适应你而是我们要学会适应环境 ^^ 我们要学会改变的就是自己,一起迎合美好的一切!!

「心若改变,态度就会改变;态度改变,习惯就改变;习惯改变,人生就会改变。」

和尚与屠夫

从前有一个和尚跟一个屠夫是好朋友。

和尚天天早上要起来念经,而屠夫天天要起来杀猪。

为了不耽误他们早上的工作,是他们约定早上互相叫对方起床。

多年以后,和尚与屠夫相继去世了。屠夫去上天堂了,而和尚却下地狱了。

Why?

因为屠夫天天作善事,叫和尚起来念经,相反地,和尚天天叫屠夫起来杀生……

你所认为的事情以及你所做的东西你一直认为是对的,但有时后却不一定是对的。
做每样事情时,不妨站在其他人的角度看一看,想一想吧!

你会如何决择呢?

你开着一辆车。
在一个暴风雨的晚上。
你经过一个车站。
有三个人正在焦急的等公共汽车。

一个是快要临死的老人,他需要马上去医院。
一个是医生,他曾救过你的命,你做梦都想报答他。
还有一个女人/男人,她/他是你做梦都想嫁/娶的人,也许错过就没有了。

但你的车只能在坐下一个人,你会如何选择?
我不知道这是不是一个对你性格的测试, 因为每一个回答都有他自己的原因。
老人快要死了,你首先应该先救他。
你也想让那个医生上车,因为他救过你,这是个好机会报答他。
还有就是你的梦中情人。错过了这个机会。你可能永远不能遇到一个让你这么心动的人了。

在200个应征者中,只有一个人被雇佣了,他并没有解释他的理由,他只是说了以下的话:

'给医生车钥匙,让他带着老人去医院,而我则留下来陪我的梦中情人一起等公车!'

每个人都认为以上的回答是最好的,但没有一个人一开始就想到。

是否是因为我们从未想过要放弃我们手中已经拥有的优势(车钥匙)? 有时,如果我们能放弃一些我们的固执,狭隘,和一些优势的话,我们可能会得到更多。

爱情主题曲

白羊座 / 牧羊座
在爱情里,是属于冲动及主动型的。但偶尔的矛盾却也让自己处在混乱之中。

爱情主题曲是:
卢学睿 - 可不可以爱我

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为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军


为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落


你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄 成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞

想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

Sunday, 10 January 2010

要走了?

我是不是应该走啊?

或许那才是我应该走的路?

这里还有什么值得留恋的事物吗?

烦啊。。。想了很久都还是没有决定。。。怎么办啊?是不是就这样一走了之好了?

Friday, 8 January 2010

钱钱钱!!!

闷啊。。。

最近的生活都是呆在家里不出街,不是看电视剧就是发呆,还真的快闷到生出菇来了。

不过这也没办法的事了。。。

新的一年了,自己也多了一岁,难听一点,就是又老了一岁了。可是却什么都没有。。。

  • 没脸蛋
  • 没身材
  • 没金钱
  • 没事业
  • 没情人

一句到底,就是什么都没有。更可悲的是,人老珠黄的家伙,连知心朋友也不多。回顾以往,还真的搞不清楚,到底谁才算得是真心对待自己的朋友?

为什么这样讲呢?

真心朋友会不顾你的死活吗?

赚的钱都已经不多了,还得被逼装阔佬,请这样请那样。吃个午餐,或者吃个晚餐,一人就得给几人份的钱。看电影,更是一人包完全场,这样子,只是还看电影的卡数都还死我啦。再加上油钱呢?出街好像都是我的义务当司机似的,油钱,收费站都是我包完。这些都不是小数目咯。而且有想过,车子驾多了,保养车子那方面又是一笔钱吗?

大家的钱都是辛苦赚来的。珍惜自己的血汗钱,可是却把别人的血汗钱向泼水一样泼出去,这是真心朋友的所作所为吗?至少我不敢这样做。。。

说到这里,连我自己都累掉了。。。

不说了!就这样吧,继续闭关下去。。。