Confusion

Middle of the midnight, i still stay awake...
Because of some question that i cannot have an clear answer about it. Sometimes ago, i made a decision, to let you go, as i posted in previous blog. But i still cannot forget about you, you still stay somewhere in my heart, i still can feel you alive within my soul. But...
Em... Last night i went to k box with friends...
I dont know what or who or which song that trigger me... But i start to think... and realize that...
Is it i cannot let you go? Or just simply because i still not yet meet someone that is more "Perfect" than you?
Yes, i loved you. But it is all past already. Why i still keep hurting myself? Why i cannot allow myself to be a little more happier? Is it i do not deserved it?
Since the day i let you go, you no longer belong to me. So what's the feeling right now? The feeling that i am missing someone? Yes, i do miss you. But... i mean i miss our sweet memory... i miss our happy day... But is not the "Miss" to a lover... I think i have a little tiny bit understand already. I had let you go, and so i must release myself as well, to let myself to have a brand new day. I think i just need a little bit time to fully understand what is deep inside my mind, my soul... I just need time...
Well... End of story... I am done mumbling around here...
^^ Hehe... A little mess on what i had type... But this is what my feeling right now...
Confuse ~~~

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