Numb?

Sigh...

Such a long time never update my blog... almost 1 month plus already... who knows - once update, is again negative emotion energy... ahhHHH... really not happy in work... OMG... who can help me!?

Express different opinion also wrong?
Voice out different thinking also wrong?
Stand up and fight against unfair stuff also wrong?
No right to speak out freely?
Have to be numb in work?
Do everything with two eyes close tightly?
Be a puppet follow whatever order regardless have any concern?

I really dont know what is the answer for these question above. I had asked myself for many times in heart already. Keep on search and search for the answer, but i cant even get 1 answer for 1 of the question. Is is i am too stuborn? Is it i am too headstrong? Is it i am such a fighting cock as people speak behind?

Yeah, i admit i may not be the one that do everything all correct. Actually i also never said i am all correct. But i just try to get my job done perfectly. I just try to speak out my opinion. No matter accept or not, why cannot just discuss nicely? Why have to have all these office politic play around? I dont understand!!!

SOMEONE... HELP ME... PLEASE!!!!!!

I am definitely have to get out of this!!!!!!